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So, I seriously need to get my shit together.
The past two weeks, it's consisted mainly of going out and getting drunk with friends. This tends to be a good thing, because i'm out with friends and it keeps my mind off shit. However, the end of the night, when everyone's gone and i'm alone... my mind starts tearing me apart and all I want to do is talk to someone, so I call and txt people at 4 or 6am. Which, I shouldn't. Sorry to everyone that I bother with this. Thanks to those that try to talk to me despite being asleep.
I really don't know. Someone said not to drink.. but that doesn't really matter. I mean, I don't call people. I have enough sense to realize that no one wants to be woken up in the middle of the night so I can postpone my own emotional bullshit. Instead I just sit there and dwell silently. At least when I'm out drinking, I'm not thinking about it. Even when I'm out with people and I'm not drinking, I constantly switch back, and think about the shit.
Maybe it's the signs of being an alcoholic. hah.
I just need to stay busy. I don't know. I can't figure shit out.
The past two weeks, it's consisted mainly of going out and getting drunk with friends. This tends to be a good thing, because i'm out with friends and it keeps my mind off shit. However, the end of the night, when everyone's gone and i'm alone... my mind starts tearing me apart and all I want to do is talk to someone, so I call and txt people at 4 or 6am. Which, I shouldn't. Sorry to everyone that I bother with this. Thanks to those that try to talk to me despite being asleep.
I really don't know. Someone said not to drink.. but that doesn't really matter. I mean, I don't call people. I have enough sense to realize that no one wants to be woken up in the middle of the night so I can postpone my own emotional bullshit. Instead I just sit there and dwell silently. At least when I'm out drinking, I'm not thinking about it. Even when I'm out with people and I'm not drinking, I constantly switch back, and think about the shit.
Maybe it's the signs of being an alcoholic. hah.
I just need to stay busy. I don't know. I can't figure shit out.