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I fucking hate college. For it all it's worth, it's amazing, but I can't go on living like this. I'm not doing my work, I'm through my future into the wind, and I have this extremely strong urge to stop living. And by that I mean living VS just surviving through life. I don't know how to fucking do this. No one ever told me. There was no class, no seminar, no final, people just expected that I'd figure out how to get through this place "somehow". Well that isn't working. This isn't how I want to do college and every time I try to do it right, I do well for a little and then rapidly decline. I need a therapist who can help me change my life. I want fucking answers because if everyone has as hard a time as I do getting through this shit, then someone better let me in on the fucking secret because I am lost. There has got to be a way to get through this. I don't want to be stupid, I don't want to be a failure, I don't want to give up on yet another thing I love because it got too hard.
I can't figure this shit out,
so I hope to god someone else did.
I can't figure this shit out,
so I hope to god someone else did.