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Tonight at dance I realized alot.
I looked around the room and saw every all too familiar face, and realized I only have one more week of dancing with these people.
I've grown so close to these girls I could call them family.
There is a bond between us all that is absolutely indescribable. I guess you have to go through it to feel what I feel.
I get a sick feeling in my stomach and my eyes start watering up when I think of that last dance with them.
One week.
Just one week to make the best of what's left.
I don't know how I'm going to step on that dancefloor without curling up in a ball and dying right then and there.
And then there's highschool.
I can't stand it right now.
It is dreadful waking up each morning, walking all the way from the football feild parking lot to the C building, going through each drawn out and pointless class. But fuck I'm going to miss it so much. Everything is in it's right place, and I can't deal with the heartbreak of leaving all my friends right now. Katherine is moving 12 hours away. Avery 7. Tori to Santa Barbra. Life is about to change far too much and I just don't think I can handle it. I don't want to. I want to put my life on hold and live today and this moment with these people forever.
sigh.
EDIT: I've lost quite a few friends this year, and gotten closen to alot of other people who arn't addicted to heroine or just a big bitch. I like sober happy people alot better.
I looked around the room and saw every all too familiar face, and realized I only have one more week of dancing with these people.
I've grown so close to these girls I could call them family.
There is a bond between us all that is absolutely indescribable. I guess you have to go through it to feel what I feel.
I get a sick feeling in my stomach and my eyes start watering up when I think of that last dance with them.
One week.
Just one week to make the best of what's left.
I don't know how I'm going to step on that dancefloor without curling up in a ball and dying right then and there.
And then there's highschool.
I can't stand it right now.
It is dreadful waking up each morning, walking all the way from the football feild parking lot to the C building, going through each drawn out and pointless class. But fuck I'm going to miss it so much. Everything is in it's right place, and I can't deal with the heartbreak of leaving all my friends right now. Katherine is moving 12 hours away. Avery 7. Tori to Santa Barbra. Life is about to change far too much and I just don't think I can handle it. I don't want to. I want to put my life on hold and live today and this moment with these people forever.
sigh.
EDIT: I've lost quite a few friends this year, and gotten closen to alot of other people who arn't addicted to heroine or just a big bitch. I like sober happy people alot better.