I feel so empty

[_retina_]

Walking
Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
And Hating
The things that I can't bear

Did you think its cool to walk right up,
To take my life and fuck it up?
Well did you?
Well did you?

I see hell in your eyes!
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside

Walking
Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
And hating
The things that I can't bear

Did you think its cool to walk right up
To take my life and fuck it up?
Well did you?

I hate you!!

I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
(Surprise)
And touching you makes me feel alive
(I see hell in your eyes)
And touching you makes me die inside

I've slept so long without you
It's tearing me apart too
How to get this far
Playing games with this old heart
I've killed a million petty souls
But I couldn't kill you
I've slept so long without you

(Touching you makes me die inside)
I see hell in your eyes
(Touching you makes me die inside)
Taken in by surprise
(Touching you makes me die inside)
And touching you makes me feel alive
(Touching you makes me die inside)
And touching you makes me die inside

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I was thinking back to days when I was younger.
It had a bit to do with listening to the old Queen of The Damned soundtrack that seemed to be a staple when I was 16.

I was wondering how I could still be so vulnerable?
I remember Tony, how he ripped me apart. How beautiful and exquisite he was but how I knew I couldn't have him.
And now Jeff. He has that same beauty.
Could it be so coincidental? Maybe they share sociopathy, I dont know.

I just never believed there would be another like this.
It's so brutal. And yet I can still be so vulnerable?
I continue searching for love and giving my heart.
Some would admire me and some...would laugh at my foolishness.

Yes, I am a fool. But...one day I won't be.