"One in Six Children Will Flee in Boats"
Fuck, I really hate being down about this.
Not really, "down," but I do not enjoy it when I do not know what is going on or what is going to happen.
I am seriously trying hard this time, but that is not making it any easier.
I want expectations again because then maybe I will start feeling a little happier about life in general.
Nothing makes sense, though.
If I have expectations then I have a real reason to be let down and that will not make me feel happy at all, but if I do not have any then nothing will really matter and it will just end up being something else.
Just like it has been for the past two years.
Something else.
Not really, "down," but I do not enjoy it when I do not know what is going on or what is going to happen.
I am seriously trying hard this time, but that is not making it any easier.
I want expectations again because then maybe I will start feeling a little happier about life in general.
Nothing makes sense, though.
If I have expectations then I have a real reason to be let down and that will not make me feel happy at all, but if I do not have any then nothing will really matter and it will just end up being something else.
Just like it has been for the past two years.
Something else.