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So we've finally got DSL set up in this place and write now i'm trying to make up for months of being in vermont without being able to torrent properly, in other words i'm massively updating my movie and music collection. So things are going pretty well in that respect. This place is starting to feel like home and that kind of scares me a little bit, I like that i'm getting comfortable but i don't like how easy the transistion was/has been and it makes me worry about my family. I've never really been one to be in steady contact with anyone: friends, family, whatever. I've never really put out that extra effort to stay in touch and be a part of someones life when i'm not actually around, I think it was easier to deal with before because - everyone had that crutch that I'd be back come the summer time.
But, I guess the stark realization is that, that summer is never going to come. I'm here for good and i'm really starting to worry about how it's going to effect my relationshops with my friends. I'm going to miss them a lot and honestly, and this isn't meant to sound pompous or trite, but my friends don't really show the motivation to do anything outside of what they're doing; for a lot of them that's toiling away with small ambition in Rhode Island, for others it's whatever they're focussed on right. now. Others are in different states, or away at school 75% of the time. I don't mean to sound greedy, but I'm going to miss a lot of people and I really want them to come up and visit. We've got an extra bed that can sleep 2 or 3 (if they're close enough), and i don't now.
Guess i'm afraid of losing everyone and everything i've ever known. It's a pretty scary thought.
But, I guess the stark realization is that, that summer is never going to come. I'm here for good and i'm really starting to worry about how it's going to effect my relationshops with my friends. I'm going to miss them a lot and honestly, and this isn't meant to sound pompous or trite, but my friends don't really show the motivation to do anything outside of what they're doing; for a lot of them that's toiling away with small ambition in Rhode Island, for others it's whatever they're focussed on right. now. Others are in different states, or away at school 75% of the time. I don't mean to sound greedy, but I'm going to miss a lot of people and I really want them to come up and visit. We've got an extra bed that can sleep 2 or 3 (if they're close enough), and i don't now.
Guess i'm afraid of losing everyone and everything i've ever known. It's a pretty scary thought.