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i fucking heart derek so much but not when he dirnks last night was his 2nd night in a row drinking for the first time and i hate it! hes so diff. he's a lot meaner i def. dont like it but may-b i can make him stop drinking? i dunno i dont want to lose him but when he drinks it makes me sad cuz the way he acts i dont think he cares anymore and im scared he'll break up with me even though i know he wont! i dunno its so fucking annoying all thanks to r.j. had to get him to start drinking! if he keeps this up well its not going to be good for our relationship i know that for a fact! well last night when we were talking he said he'd talk to me in the morning and im like only if u call i wont call you! so i guess we'll see when he calls its only 1030 so either he's at the field or he's still sleeping..i dunno i dont really care right now...sam was pist last night i dont know why o well... i was in a good mood till derek became like r.j wen he's sober! i wana hang out with my sarah! what the fuck im about to call her! im bored i hope someone is up and wants to hang out if not then i guess ill have to go back to sleep:/
p.s. i hope derek has the worst hang over EVER!!!!
p.s. i hope derek has the worst hang over EVER!!!!