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well not much exciting is going on in my life.. um i didnt go to school this whole week i dont know exactly what im doing with my life..ill find out soon i hope..ive been talking to cory again..kinda bad thing i mean i nver got over him but its like 1000x's worse i cant stop thinking about him but he told me he cant do a long distance relationship and i know how it feels we went thru that already but i told him id drop everything to be with him but he just doesnt get it! like if he had his own place and wanted me id move up there in a second...its crazy how crazy i am about him! i knew there was something specail about him when we got stuck out in the everglades and when i stood on the top of that hill and he ran up agave me a big hug ill never 4get that moment it was just AMAZING words couldnt descibe how hard i feel for him that very moment...all i want is another chance with him and im willing to risk everything i have to be with him again. i dont know how to tell him all this its just relle hard especially when he tells me he wants me happy and to date someone else! i dont want him to do that i want him to want me and only me but i dont know what to do..im supposed 2 call him 2day but i dont think i am going to..last night when we got off the fone i went driving around histerically crying just beacuse it hurts that i cant be with him! ugh! sarah told me to go over and she sat in my car and listened to me talk and it made me feel better that i had someone i could talk to! so i went out and got her flowers and wrote her a lil note and im going over her hosue when she gets out of school to give them to her..lol i feel gay doing it but she's my best friend in the WHOLe world! so i need her lol...anyway some of my other friends are making me feel unloved and i feel like a taxi now and i def. am not happy about it! um my newest friend manders k.a. lil bit is the sweetest person ever! we are always having fun even driving around i love her! um me nd david arnt talking anymore and i told him its cuz he isnt cory and thats def. the truth! i cant even think about another boy but cory! i get to see him wed. i wnat to see him now i want to go up there i might if i get gas money so hopfully i can hang with him a whole day instead of when he comes down for amy-b an hour! well see anyway gata go<3 ya