Aug 13, 2004 21:17
My close friend is anorexic. I can barely stand to look at her anymore, maybe even talk to her. I've known about it for a while, and I've been doing my best to help her without having to get her a shrink because:
a)she doesn't have the kind of money to see a shrink
b)she won't see a shrink, even if I shoved her in the dang office.
c) If i called a shrink she would've stopped trusting me and she didn't trust many other people, and if I ruined her trust in me then all of her future problems will go unnoticed.
now she's saying she wants to die. she doesn't care that she's destroying herself and taking me down with her. If she gets hurt, it's all my fault. And now her PARENTS know but theyre trying the whole 'we wont help you, you have to help yourself' thing. SHE WONT HELP HERSELF! SHE WANTS TO BE ANOREXIC, SHE WANTS TO DRINK, SHE WANTS TO SMOKE AND SHE WANTS TO DIE! And I can't fix it. I can't fix it. And it's all my fault. She's dieing, and I'm the one who killed her.