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dear diary,
i ruined everything today.
everything.
i set back the clock more then 10 months.
i lost it all.
theres nothing i can do about it though.
this cycle looks too damn familiar.
does anyone remember when ive done the right thing?
i dont. i dont think i ever will.
i swear, even if its not over, i'll just continue to treat her like shit.
thats all i ever did. thats all i ever will do.
i never learn.
i never grow up.
i never gain anything by what i do.
i'm a failure. absolutely.
i would stab myself, but i know for a fact that god wouldnt take me.
more of a question than a curse.
how could hell be any worse?
than this?
i will never become friends with anyone again.
friends stab you in the back.
thats all anyone ever does.
i fucked up.
i fucked up.
i'm going to do it again....
i finally have joined everyone else. I too have lost faith, trust, loyalty, and most importantly love in myself.
thats all i have to say.
goodbye diary, for good.
i ruined everything today.
everything.
i set back the clock more then 10 months.
i lost it all.
theres nothing i can do about it though.
this cycle looks too damn familiar.
does anyone remember when ive done the right thing?
i dont. i dont think i ever will.
i swear, even if its not over, i'll just continue to treat her like shit.
thats all i ever did. thats all i ever will do.
i never learn.
i never grow up.
i never gain anything by what i do.
i'm a failure. absolutely.
i would stab myself, but i know for a fact that god wouldnt take me.
more of a question than a curse.
how could hell be any worse?
than this?
i will never become friends with anyone again.
friends stab you in the back.
thats all anyone ever does.
i fucked up.
i fucked up.
i'm going to do it again....
i finally have joined everyone else. I too have lost faith, trust, loyalty, and most importantly love in myself.
thats all i have to say.
goodbye diary, for good.