no words...
whenever i try to find words to describe how i'm feeling... it sounds corny or stupid...so instead i'm going to use other people's words...
"when i looked into your eyes the moment that i let you go i just broke down"
"i can't sleep at night, when you are on my mind, bobby lomack's on the radio sayin to me 'if you think you're lonely now' wait a minute this is too deep, i've gotta change the station so i turn the dial tryin' to catch a break and then i hear babyface 'i only think of you' and its breakin my heart i'm tryin to keep it together but i'm fallin apart"
"sometimes in my darkest thoughts i wish i never learned, what it is to be in love and have that love returned"
"i would reach for him but who can hold a memory, and love isn't everything, that moonlight on the bed will melt away, someday"
"did i create a dream, was he a fantasy, even a memory is paradise for all the fools like me"
"i almost made you happy baby didn't i didn't i, almost had me thinkin, youre gonna stick around, but everybody knows, almost doesn't count"
"i'll forget you, i won't remember arms that pulled me in soft and slow, i'll forget you, there has to be a way to let you go"
"i can't get out of bed today, or get you off my mind, i just can't seem to find a way to leave the love behind...every now and then when i'm all alone, i'll be wishin you would call me on the telephone, say you want me back but you never do, i feel like such a fool, there's nothing i can do i'm stuck on you"
"you love, you learn"
"i wanna be big and let go of this grudge thats grown old"
"I thought we'd get to see forever, but forever's gone away, its so hard to say goodbye, to yesterday"
"i'm a big big girl in a big big world its not a big big thing if you leave me, but i do do feel that i do do will miss you much...i have your arms around me warm like fire, but when i open my eyes, your gone"
"unbreak my heart, say you love me again, undo this hurt you caused when you walked out the door and walked out of my life, uncry these tears, i've cryed so many nights, unbreak my heart"
"i've been sittin here, can't get you off my mind, i'm tryin my best to be a man and be strong, i drove myself insane wishin i could touch your face, but the truth remains your gone"
"lying in your arms so close together didn't know just what i had, now i toss and turn cuz i'm without you, how i'm missing you so bad...i lie awake i drive myself crazy thinking of you"
and the one song that PERFECTLY describes how i feel:
"Never look back we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead
Emptiness behind, where do I go?
And you didn't hear all my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears, did you know?
Still I miss you somehow
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
Baby I said please stay
Give our love a chance for one more day
We could've worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart through my dreams, through my heart
And I'm back where I started again, yeah
Never thought it would end
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear, yeah
Still I wish you were here now
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two you gotta know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
Never look back we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?"
ok... i don't mean to be depressing... i just needed to get this out of my system... and the sooner the better... you don't realize the number of sad love songs around until you live through them... i'm gonna be fine... i just need some time... and a few more tissues... i can't wait to get back to school and start anew... its going to be a great year...
...tomorrow would have been one year...
"when i looked into your eyes the moment that i let you go i just broke down"
"i can't sleep at night, when you are on my mind, bobby lomack's on the radio sayin to me 'if you think you're lonely now' wait a minute this is too deep, i've gotta change the station so i turn the dial tryin' to catch a break and then i hear babyface 'i only think of you' and its breakin my heart i'm tryin to keep it together but i'm fallin apart"
"sometimes in my darkest thoughts i wish i never learned, what it is to be in love and have that love returned"
"i would reach for him but who can hold a memory, and love isn't everything, that moonlight on the bed will melt away, someday"
"did i create a dream, was he a fantasy, even a memory is paradise for all the fools like me"
"i almost made you happy baby didn't i didn't i, almost had me thinkin, youre gonna stick around, but everybody knows, almost doesn't count"
"i'll forget you, i won't remember arms that pulled me in soft and slow, i'll forget you, there has to be a way to let you go"
"i can't get out of bed today, or get you off my mind, i just can't seem to find a way to leave the love behind...every now and then when i'm all alone, i'll be wishin you would call me on the telephone, say you want me back but you never do, i feel like such a fool, there's nothing i can do i'm stuck on you"
"you love, you learn"
"i wanna be big and let go of this grudge thats grown old"
"I thought we'd get to see forever, but forever's gone away, its so hard to say goodbye, to yesterday"
"i'm a big big girl in a big big world its not a big big thing if you leave me, but i do do feel that i do do will miss you much...i have your arms around me warm like fire, but when i open my eyes, your gone"
"unbreak my heart, say you love me again, undo this hurt you caused when you walked out the door and walked out of my life, uncry these tears, i've cryed so many nights, unbreak my heart"
"i've been sittin here, can't get you off my mind, i'm tryin my best to be a man and be strong, i drove myself insane wishin i could touch your face, but the truth remains your gone"
"lying in your arms so close together didn't know just what i had, now i toss and turn cuz i'm without you, how i'm missing you so bad...i lie awake i drive myself crazy thinking of you"
and the one song that PERFECTLY describes how i feel:
"Never look back we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead
Emptiness behind, where do I go?
And you didn't hear all my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears, did you know?
Still I miss you somehow
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
Baby I said please stay
Give our love a chance for one more day
We could've worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart through my dreams, through my heart
And I'm back where I started again, yeah
Never thought it would end
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear, yeah
Still I wish you were here now
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two you gotta know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
Never look back we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?"
ok... i don't mean to be depressing... i just needed to get this out of my system... and the sooner the better... you don't realize the number of sad love songs around until you live through them... i'm gonna be fine... i just need some time... and a few more tissues... i can't wait to get back to school and start anew... its going to be a great year...
...tomorrow would have been one year...