Fuck everything you believe.
A lot of things have been going on lately with other people. I feel so bad for all the shit my friends go through. How about we start with kara, well..shes one of my best friends ever. We’ve just knows each other so long, we understand each other. Things are not going good with someone she has known and cared for for a very long time. I kinda know how she feels , but im telling you kara, you dont want to loose him . it hurts so bad. Not even the fact that hes not there, the fact that you know you were the one to let him go. So, the you feel guilty and sorry for yourself, and on top of it all it hurts so bad to think about him. keep him with you forever, kara. You both will have to try harder, but its worth it. Don’t break a friendship for someone that special. That’s you too buddy! He needs to keep his end, and think about how you feel. On to my bitch, pam. I love her dearly. We havnt really hung out as much as we used to because of,well…reasons. BUT next week shes gone mothafucka! And I get my bitch back<3 I miss her sometimes. Im just so busy too so I cant talk to everyone like I used to, I cant keep spending all my time on the phone and the computer, on top of work and around the house shit.its way too much. And Dorothy, you have so much in you. I dont like how you always look down on yourself, same goes for you ronda! You guys have so much awesome qualities to you! Give yourself a freakin chance. I love you two<3 lets see, other than that theres just bad relationship problems. I guess megan broke up with timmy. He seems kinda bummed, I guess. We’re going to hang out Sunday if I can get directions to that one place with the waterfall, oh its so beautiful there! Chris might be coming over tmrw. I still don’t know if its such a good idea, and im not exactly sure what im going to say to him. I had been thinking about it for such a long time and now that the time comes im completely speechless. I guess I kinda just miss him. on a lighter note, this weekend should be loads of fun. Tmrw, I got a bunch of things to do after school if my dad is willing to run me around then sat im going to the carsol to pick out a dress for homecoming<3 oohh and me and cathy get to do that speech in English, haha. Its like mr.p’s class all over again. You gotta love us. Sunday, I might even go to church! Ha! Me, I know it. I havnt gone in such a long time. I think its about time I went. Maybe even just to sing. Although I am sick. Oh well. Imma sing neways, biitch. Carl left me a message the other day, I guess he talked to Al and calmed him down. I feel really bad, I understand though. Its not his fault. I hate the army. They took everyone away. Not that a lot of them were important, but … it still sucks. He doesn’t know if he can come up for Halloween and if cant come up for that week then he wont come up for like, 6 months. That’s really dumpy. Carl is throwing a Halloween party though, cause hes super groovy and is getting an apartment. My school work is going awesomely. Even when I feel down, theres always that one friend who makes a difference.so the point of this entry was to thankyou guys for always being there for me, I honestly would be lost without you all. Ohh, and btw!!! My step-dad doesn’t have cancer!!!! He is sick though, but its not that seriose, . Im so happy for that.things are starting to really look up.