you lied.
AND ALL THOES TIMES YOU PROMISED ME IT WOULD WORK OUT IN THE END.
YOU WERE GRAVELY MISTAKEN.
So... i have been thinking about this for a few weeks, and after one of my bestfriends lied to me, and confronted her beliefs with a bunch of people she didnt even know instead of tellign me what she thought....im a little stressed. I didnt get much sleep last night, but i'll get over it.
Truthfully, i dont know why i thought al was so perfect. we've had our downs, but if we didnt it would be just too perfect. aha. how stupid was I?? I basicly broke up with two people for this kid. Id do anything for him. I love him right? How can you love someone you dont trust?
My emotions are going all crazy. I dont know what i feel. I know of wish i could just go numb instead of dealing with fake smiles and upseting nights.
Its hard to forget him when he keeps calling me =/
I dont want to forget him, and i think thats where the stupitity comes in. how could i have been so blind???
im so sick of being sweet talked and getitng my heart broke. it hurts. a lot. yet i continue to keep coming back for more. i feel like im addicted to somene i hate. . . but i love so much.
I think for right now, i just need ot cool down. Im not answering his calls. or responding to messages. I need....time.
And you know what? Fuck going with what he wants. I have all the time in the world. im young. im open-minded.im free going. and for the most part...carefree.
I guess i just relized....whats so great about him? what sets him apart from anyother guy iv dated?
Said fuck it.
Im Fine.