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is it normal/okay to be overwhelmed with projects? i know i am supposed to be
1. building my intstrument that was supposed to be handed in last monday
2. writing a paper about the five things i tend to do wrong in papers
3. reading whatever stupid book indepent study has a test on tomorrow ...
but i can't bring myself to face my responsibilities.
does this magically change when you become an adult, or was there some crowning ceremony that i already missed? i don't want to walk on hot coals with no shoes for you anymore,. none of it matters.
but then when i think too much about how "none of it matters" i wonder why i'm still here. clearly my habits have made me apathetic toward everyone and everything; clearly my habits have made me nihilistic and awful. my habits have made me even uglier than i was before.
i wish that things could be perfect for you, but i don't think my company is a part of that equation;i wish i wish i wish we weren't at such different places in our lives-what's the point?
i guess what i mean to say is
i'm not sure if i'm doing the right thing.
1. building my intstrument that was supposed to be handed in last monday
2. writing a paper about the five things i tend to do wrong in papers
3. reading whatever stupid book indepent study has a test on tomorrow ...
but i can't bring myself to face my responsibilities.
does this magically change when you become an adult, or was there some crowning ceremony that i already missed? i don't want to walk on hot coals with no shoes for you anymore,. none of it matters.
but then when i think too much about how "none of it matters" i wonder why i'm still here. clearly my habits have made me apathetic toward everyone and everything; clearly my habits have made me nihilistic and awful. my habits have made me even uglier than i was before.
i wish that things could be perfect for you, but i don't think my company is a part of that equation;i wish i wish i wish we weren't at such different places in our lives-what's the point?
i guess what i mean to say is
i'm not sure if i'm doing the right thing.