Getting there.
I'm slowly managing to climb out of this depressive pit. Yesterday it came to a head. I didn't really feel like doing anything and didn't want to talk to John about how I was feeling. About 2 hours of discussion later, and we're finally discussing what things are wrong.
My self confidence has plummeted, being a huge strain on my daily life. I can honestly say I am repulsed by myself. Thankfully, I have lost 10lbs recently. A far cry from the 50lbs I still need to lose, but at least it's showing that it can be done. But yeah. I'm jealous of other people, I'm jealous of John talking to other, prettier people. It's getting to the stage of ridiculous right now.
John wants me to give him more compliments and support. I admit, I've been failing. But when our daily lives are just the same old shit, it's hard to repeat the same things without it seeming forced. 'Good job at work today, hon'. Just doesn't feel enough.
So yeah. We're having issues, but nothing we can't work through. I just hope I can show him that I do love him and that I'm not wanting to leave his side...
My self confidence has plummeted, being a huge strain on my daily life. I can honestly say I am repulsed by myself. Thankfully, I have lost 10lbs recently. A far cry from the 50lbs I still need to lose, but at least it's showing that it can be done. But yeah. I'm jealous of other people, I'm jealous of John talking to other, prettier people. It's getting to the stage of ridiculous right now.
John wants me to give him more compliments and support. I admit, I've been failing. But when our daily lives are just the same old shit, it's hard to repeat the same things without it seeming forced. 'Good job at work today, hon'. Just doesn't feel enough.
So yeah. We're having issues, but nothing we can't work through. I just hope I can show him that I do love him and that I'm not wanting to leave his side...