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Hey, so this is an obnoxious lyrics post, but the beauty of it is that you don't HAVE to click the link.
I wish I knew a man
Someone to steal me
from this sadness
I wish I knew a girl
Who'd run her fingers
through my hair and kiss me
Wish I didn't have to pretend
That when I'm talking to the floor I'm talking to you
If I had a friend then
such stupid things I'd never have to do
I wish I had a friend
I wish I knew a man
One who'd help me to stop disguising my feelings
I wish I knew a girl
Who'd keep me from silencing my heart's voice
Oh I wish I didn't feel like an island
No country will claim
Wish I had a friend who'd stop me
From falling into this depression all over again
I wish I had a friend like that
But I know it will never be
So that friend for me has to come from inside of me
My friend will have to be me
I wish I knew a man
Someone to help me stop being self conscious
I wish I knew a girl
One to take away my fear of dying
I wish I weren't afraid that some spirit
Will come out of the darkness and carry me away
I wish I had a friend whom if that happened
Would storm right in and save the day
I wish I had a friend like that
But I know it will never be
So that friend for me has to come from inside of me
My friend will have to be me
Nothing can save me from the pain
of you not loving me
It doesn't help me to complain
I just have to feel it
and hope it goes away
But it's so useless and it hurts just like it did before I'm afraid that I'll close up inside
and no longer feel anything anymore
It's hard to know exactly
when my dreams got weird
I tense up and get antsy when you're near
But nightly you appear to me
ghostly in my head
but I never can remember what you said
It must be something reassuring
something sweet and kind
something you would never say in real life
Where does it go in the morning
It slipped out of my hand
Eating breakfast with my other thoughts
away from wakeful lands
Where is the you I created
the you that I adore?
When my eyes are open I don't see you anymore
It's hard for me to fathom
that you disappeared
and turned into exactly what I feared
But every night you sing to me
when my eyes are closed
But I never can remember how it goes
It must be something undeserving
only in my mind
Something you would never sing on your time
It disappears without warning
It shifts like grains of sand
Galavanting with some other dreams
I didn't understand
Where is the you I created
the you that I adore?
When my eyes are open I don't see you anymore
It's such a strange need to be deprived of
To just want love and feel happy
Things have been just, incredibly wierd lately. There's no other way to describe it. I wish I could write about it on here, I really do. But, I don't know how to do that kind of thing. I'd rather just keep all these crazy fucking feelings locked up inside! Yes! They wouldn't know what to do if they came out anyway.
I love you I love you I lo--oooveee you.