My very first visit...
Today I went on a Field Trip! Hooray! It was with Shelley and we played around and had to walk like a million miles from Cafe Du Monde to D-day museum where we did nothing really besides talk, and I read all the old timey letters adn they were sad. This freshman Zach Joder's grampa was in the exhibit and when he returned from being a POW he was 6'2 and 88lb.!!! How insane is that!?! Yeah but anyway, then we went to the Riverwalk and this really nice asian guy offered to do henna tatoo for me for free! I got a pretty butterfly on my stomach but I would've had to walk around half naked the whole time for it to work so of course when I sat down it smeared, but the imprint is still there! So I went back and got one on my ankle and its cool. I told my dad it was real, he didnt believe me though. : (. Me and Shelley ate and talked about a lot of stuff and thsi weekend and what not. I had fun with her and thank fucking God she was there. I was supposed to go home with Mark but he came up with some lameass excuse that he had to go visit sick blood-coughing up Daniel. That's lame though cause I could've come. I don't really mind though. I had the "psycho appt." anyway.
After school Shelley came home with me for a little while and that was nice obviously but then my dad had to bring me to suite 601 wherever the hell it is. I sat in the waiting room while she talked to my dad and this little girl was behind the glass door and we were making faces to each other. I sometimes really like little kids. I mean they like me sometimes. Probably because our brains are both underdeveloped. I think I just really like that little kids don't try to be cool or judge you. I hate those spoiled ones though. Ugh. Anyway then when she was leaveing she told her mom she didnt want to go and she wanted to play with me! People want to play with me! Okay, so maybe I'm lame but it brightened my day, okay?! So yeah anyway I went into the room after and she showed me the graphed results of the survey I had filled out. It was a uhh I think a line graph? Yes, a line graph. It showed the normal levels and then if you are above them it means you have clinical problems or something in those areas. Let's just say I have some issues to look into that aren't so good. I told her a lot about my close friends and described them to her. A lot about how I feel about people and mostly myself. It was really nice to say a lot of things I wouldn't normally say to anyone. She is really concerned with my anxiety and friend situation and stuff. Especailly home but whatever I can't get into all this crap it is to boreing to anyone else. And seh even gave me a lollipopand stickers when I was done! And I am going agani next Tuesday. She said we barely scratched at the surface of what we need to talk about though. She is just hopeing they don't have to put me on meds. I am too. Yuck.
I've realized that people's opinions/thoughts on you can be COMPLETELY different then how they come across, and it is scary.
Hey look! This is the butterfly! This pic is really dark so you can't really see it though. I am so gay to be excited about that, I like it okay.
Also: BRIGHT EYES. OF MONTREAL. MSI. TAKING BACK SUNDAY. THE DAVE MATTHEWS BAND. & THE ALLMAN BROTHERS BAND ARE ALL COMING HERE IN THE NEAR FUTURE. YIPEEEE!