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I apologize in advance for typos and spelling errors.
So Im in teh Div Lib all alone figuring I should give this another try. Roughly eight more days of school left. I keep thinking that maybe this is the last time I'll do this. I really dont want to leave my friends, and this place. It really is amazingly beautiful, and I love how all 12 of my closest friends can make me laugh at any given time. Were all so weird and yet we work so well together. Yes there has been an awful lot of drama this year, but SO many good memories. All the parties: Pirate dance, AEPi, St.Patricks day, Cinco De Mayo, etc. Our trip to SF and Berkeley. Clubbing, and drunk crying. I wouldn’t trade my friends that I've made this year for anything. They really mean a lot to me, and I feel so lucky to have them. I've learned so much this year and I feel like ive really grown up. I feel older and more responsible and im really proud of it. I see how lucky I am to have two parents who are still together and love me so much, and also to have certain privileges that some people would die to have, like being able to go to college. I appreciate my parents a lot more now too. Like how hard they work to be able to send me and my brother to college, and how much they love me and trust me, and how the raised me to be such a good person. I really hope that I can be a good parent when I am older, and can do half as good of job as they have raising my brother and me.
I have so many things that I want to achieve in my life that I fear I don’t have enough time to do them all. I really want to join the Peace Corps and also go into fashion and become a buyer. I want to be fluent in another language, and I want to travel the world and maybe live in France one day. I want to save the world and help others that are less fortunate than me. I want a job I love, and would rather be doing something I love everyday than making all the money in the world. My dad says I am an idealist and all these things are nice, but when I’m older I'll understand and that I wont think this way. He says money really is important to be able to do the things you want to. I don’t know how I feel about this. I really don’t want to give up any of my dreams and just settle for something. My mom, however, says that im lucky and that most people don’t know what they want to do, but I have multiple things that I want to do in life and that’s what drives me. My mom is always so calm and collected she’s really an amazing person.
I think a lot about how lucky I am, as this year a lot of my friends have been going through rough times with their families and what not. I haven’t really experienced any of that and I am happy to be able to say that, but at the same time its hard to watch some of my closest friends, the people whom I love, suffer so much. One of my best friends right now is going through a really rough time and I just wish I could be there for her and comfort her, but I always find nothing to say because I honestly have no clue how she is feeling. I really want to do something special for her, but I don’t know what. I just want her to know that I am there for her and that I love her and that even though its a really really shitty situation, words can't even begin to explain how much it sucks, but life in a sense is unpredictable and sometimes shitty things happen to good people and there’s nothing that can be done. It's unfair and it’s hard to say this, but shit happens. People do die, and unfortunately it’s not fair, the ones that get taken from us too soon. Thoughts of death invade our minds and we wonder what is to happen to that person after they die. But the only thing we really can do is to live our lives to the fullest in honor of them, and in honor of ourselves. To know that when we die we have taken all the advantages of life, we haven’t left one word unsaid, we’ve regretted nothing, and the biggest one of all: if we were asked to do it all over again, live the same moments day in and day out knowingly without being able to change things the second time, we would say yes.
Would you say yes?
I apologize in advance for typos and spelling errors.
So Im in teh Div Lib all alone figuring I should give this another try. Roughly eight more days of school left. I keep thinking that maybe this is the last time I'll do this. I really dont want to leave my friends, and this place. It really is amazingly beautiful, and I love how all 12 of my closest friends can make me laugh at any given time. Were all so weird and yet we work so well together. Yes there has been an awful lot of drama this year, but SO many good memories. All the parties: Pirate dance, AEPi, St.Patricks day, Cinco De Mayo, etc. Our trip to SF and Berkeley. Clubbing, and drunk crying. I wouldn’t trade my friends that I've made this year for anything. They really mean a lot to me, and I feel so lucky to have them. I've learned so much this year and I feel like ive really grown up. I feel older and more responsible and im really proud of it. I see how lucky I am to have two parents who are still together and love me so much, and also to have certain privileges that some people would die to have, like being able to go to college. I appreciate my parents a lot more now too. Like how hard they work to be able to send me and my brother to college, and how much they love me and trust me, and how the raised me to be such a good person. I really hope that I can be a good parent when I am older, and can do half as good of job as they have raising my brother and me.
I have so many things that I want to achieve in my life that I fear I don’t have enough time to do them all. I really want to join the Peace Corps and also go into fashion and become a buyer. I want to be fluent in another language, and I want to travel the world and maybe live in France one day. I want to save the world and help others that are less fortunate than me. I want a job I love, and would rather be doing something I love everyday than making all the money in the world. My dad says I am an idealist and all these things are nice, but when I’m older I'll understand and that I wont think this way. He says money really is important to be able to do the things you want to. I don’t know how I feel about this. I really don’t want to give up any of my dreams and just settle for something. My mom, however, says that im lucky and that most people don’t know what they want to do, but I have multiple things that I want to do in life and that’s what drives me. My mom is always so calm and collected she’s really an amazing person.
I think a lot about how lucky I am, as this year a lot of my friends have been going through rough times with their families and what not. I haven’t really experienced any of that and I am happy to be able to say that, but at the same time its hard to watch some of my closest friends, the people whom I love, suffer so much. One of my best friends right now is going through a really rough time and I just wish I could be there for her and comfort her, but I always find nothing to say because I honestly have no clue how she is feeling. I really want to do something special for her, but I don’t know what. I just want her to know that I am there for her and that I love her and that even though its a really really shitty situation, words can't even begin to explain how much it sucks, but life in a sense is unpredictable and sometimes shitty things happen to good people and there’s nothing that can be done. It's unfair and it’s hard to say this, but shit happens. People do die, and unfortunately it’s not fair, the ones that get taken from us too soon. Thoughts of death invade our minds and we wonder what is to happen to that person after they die. But the only thing we really can do is to live our lives to the fullest in honor of them, and in honor of ourselves. To know that when we die we have taken all the advantages of life, we haven’t left one word unsaid, we’ve regretted nothing, and the biggest one of all: if we were asked to do it all over again, live the same moments day in and day out knowingly without being able to change things the second time, we would say yes.
Would you say yes?