yeah yeah yeah
Today has been really relaxing. I'm glad I decided to take a day just to rest and kick back. I woke up and made myself some breakfast then just relaxed and watched some dvd's. Had some uninterrupted time just to sit and think. It was nice. My mom gets back tomorrow probably around 5 or so, I might go to village inn tonight, but idk, I might just wanna continue to sit at home; It's the longest I've stayed home in a while so..
I hate to mention the obvious but I'm really not thrilled about going back to school, bleh
Life's been throwing some unexpected curves at me lately. Out of the blue Ricky started talking to me again and he apologized and said how he was " so sorry for everything " and wants everything to be how it was. Also out of the blue Donny has disapeared. He's around I'm sure, but I haven't talked to him in a couple of weeks?? :\ hmm. I've been hanging out with Nico a lot again so that's a plus. I started working out kind of. Not working out like..lifting weights or anything, but jogging, crunches, push ups, all that jazz to keep in shape and what not; Things I used to do when I danced. So maybe I'll be in really good shape again, wooooooo
So I was thinking about it today...or not so much today even, but Everyday before today for the past couple of months, and within the past year, I have lost all of my closest friends to their boyfriends/girlfriends. It wouldn't be so bad except for the fact that besides Becky and Rj, nobody is really good at balancing their time between their relationship and their friends. I see Tori when Trenton can't hang out or has other plans,but surprisingly I see her a fair amount, but then again, Trenton is grounded.Nicole and I aren't even really friends anymore, or atleast I wouldn't think so, What do you consider a friend? I understand its a relationship and that means you spend time together, but when it gets to the point when you'll hurt your friends just to get the slightest satisfaction out of your "significant other" you're Dependent, and it's pretty repulsive. So people that keep asking me Why I have a different group of friends, and if I like them better, no I don't like anyone better I've said that before, they're just more reliable, and I think that's pretty sad considering I haven't known them nearly as long or been through nearly as much with them. And when I say I want to get out and meet new people, Stop taking it so personally, I can't sit around and do nothing until one of my "friends" is available or has squeezed in an hour or two of time. I could rant about this for hours, and I probably should have saved it for a time when I would have picked my battles better, or written more clearly how I felt, but this was just a rant, that's all it was, first things that popped into my head and went down through my fingertips. So I certaintly wasn't as mean as I could have been or as nice, but it was the most vague/broad I could be about the whole situation.
My great aunt died this week. I don't know when the service is my cousin left before he told me. So I will most likely be missing some school.
It's really hot in my room.
So the logical solution would be to turn on the air or the fan, which I assure you I already did. dangit. it's still really hot.
I hate to mention the obvious but I'm really not thrilled about going back to school, bleh
Life's been throwing some unexpected curves at me lately. Out of the blue Ricky started talking to me again and he apologized and said how he was " so sorry for everything " and wants everything to be how it was. Also out of the blue Donny has disapeared. He's around I'm sure, but I haven't talked to him in a couple of weeks?? :\ hmm. I've been hanging out with Nico a lot again so that's a plus. I started working out kind of. Not working out like..lifting weights or anything, but jogging, crunches, push ups, all that jazz to keep in shape and what not; Things I used to do when I danced. So maybe I'll be in really good shape again, wooooooo
So I was thinking about it today...or not so much today even, but Everyday before today for the past couple of months, and within the past year, I have lost all of my closest friends to their boyfriends/girlfriends. It wouldn't be so bad except for the fact that besides Becky and Rj, nobody is really good at balancing their time between their relationship and their friends. I see Tori when Trenton can't hang out or has other plans,but surprisingly I see her a fair amount, but then again, Trenton is grounded.Nicole and I aren't even really friends anymore, or atleast I wouldn't think so, What do you consider a friend? I understand its a relationship and that means you spend time together, but when it gets to the point when you'll hurt your friends just to get the slightest satisfaction out of your "significant other" you're Dependent, and it's pretty repulsive. So people that keep asking me Why I have a different group of friends, and if I like them better, no I don't like anyone better I've said that before, they're just more reliable, and I think that's pretty sad considering I haven't known them nearly as long or been through nearly as much with them. And when I say I want to get out and meet new people, Stop taking it so personally, I can't sit around and do nothing until one of my "friends" is available or has squeezed in an hour or two of time. I could rant about this for hours, and I probably should have saved it for a time when I would have picked my battles better, or written more clearly how I felt, but this was just a rant, that's all it was, first things that popped into my head and went down through my fingertips. So I certaintly wasn't as mean as I could have been or as nice, but it was the most vague/broad I could be about the whole situation.
My great aunt died this week. I don't know when the service is my cousin left before he told me. So I will most likely be missing some school.
It's really hot in my room.
So the logical solution would be to turn on the air or the fan, which I assure you I already did. dangit. it's still really hot.