Aug 19, 2008 01:12
i was pulling all the magazines off my wall and saw what you had written. Jamie 17, my angel forever, etc. etc.
I'm glad the walls are being painted. all you did was haunt. I wanted nothing to do with you after all that much and looking back all i saw was how nnnnnniiiiiiiiiighhhhhhhh eeeeeeeevvvvvvvvveeeeeeee i could be. Congrats for always tricking me.
Eli was a popular conversation starter on saturday. He's amazing, I love eli but it didn't work out. Maybe down the road, but it just didn't. I need more understanding. I know how perfect we were for each other and so on and so forth but it was a great example of too much waaaaaay too fast.
Danny dear. We are not together and you insisting I owe you anything more than pleasant conversation is hurtful. Delete my pictures, and forget me. You are not good for me, and in that our perfect understanding of each other.
Adam. I'm sick of my friends being your firends, I hate hearing your name and who you hook up with. I don't care and it just angers me how you have faced no consequences for everything you have done while I'll have my second surgery in two weeks. I just feel jealousy towards the nothingness you deal with.
Rant...
I can't wait to return. Being pale and cold and with my dearest and my family. I don't feel like I'm home. it was so great to see my tesscapade and pooh and everybody else but this just isn't my life any more.