Camping trip!
Camping was amazing.
I hiked to the top of a dormant volcano and bouldered my way down. I slept in sub zero temperatures and had a snow ball fight with my gay boyfriend. I drank and smoked with my professor who decided he wants me to narrate his life for a day. Jeff tried to get all upons but I said FUCK THAT NOISE. Then we came home and I took the most amazing shower of my life.
Budzzzz
Seems like everyday somebody is smoking me out, another person wants me to ditch class and hang out, and all they want to do is talk. I like the company I keep, just a swarm of interesting intellectuals. I'm going to class, don't worry. Probably going to make dean's list as a matter of fact :) I just feel so high all the time. I don't mean to, because I can see it affecting my ability to think clearly but its nice feeling so safe and meeting so many crazy people.
Food
I'm eating my emotions and my jeans are getting tighter. I can feel myself stress and head towards a plate of french fries. I HATE GAINING WEIGHT. Granted PMS includes bloating and cravings, both of which I want to blame, but I feel like I'm in a tailspin. This ongoing battle with my weight is enough to go insane. Not to mention my finals all happening today and tomorrow. smoking all the time probably doesn't help my problem.
Home
I miss you guys a lot. I miss dancing as much as I used to, and my sword, and my family and my bed and everything. I miss my friends so much. The people here are amazing, but you guys know me so well and can tell me how to solve my problems and know when I'm lying to myself. Pragya asked me why I was so afraid to feel compassion for other people, and I just felt like if she were shannon or christina she would get it. She would know how fucked up people were and how there is no point in caring for everybody who hurts you. Reminds me of Eli. YOURE SO INCAPABLE OF MAKING AN EMOTIONAL CONNECTION WITH OTHER PEOPLE. not at home, at home i have my two best friends who I'm emotionally connected with... jeff said thats why he didnt want to be around anymore, cause he liked me and he knew i didnt feel the same way... FUCK FEELING SAD
Back to studying...
I hiked to the top of a dormant volcano and bouldered my way down. I slept in sub zero temperatures and had a snow ball fight with my gay boyfriend. I drank and smoked with my professor who decided he wants me to narrate his life for a day. Jeff tried to get all upons but I said FUCK THAT NOISE. Then we came home and I took the most amazing shower of my life.
Budzzzz
Seems like everyday somebody is smoking me out, another person wants me to ditch class and hang out, and all they want to do is talk. I like the company I keep, just a swarm of interesting intellectuals. I'm going to class, don't worry. Probably going to make dean's list as a matter of fact :) I just feel so high all the time. I don't mean to, because I can see it affecting my ability to think clearly but its nice feeling so safe and meeting so many crazy people.
Food
I'm eating my emotions and my jeans are getting tighter. I can feel myself stress and head towards a plate of french fries. I HATE GAINING WEIGHT. Granted PMS includes bloating and cravings, both of which I want to blame, but I feel like I'm in a tailspin. This ongoing battle with my weight is enough to go insane. Not to mention my finals all happening today and tomorrow. smoking all the time probably doesn't help my problem.
Home
I miss you guys a lot. I miss dancing as much as I used to, and my sword, and my family and my bed and everything. I miss my friends so much. The people here are amazing, but you guys know me so well and can tell me how to solve my problems and know when I'm lying to myself. Pragya asked me why I was so afraid to feel compassion for other people, and I just felt like if she were shannon or christina she would get it. She would know how fucked up people were and how there is no point in caring for everybody who hurts you. Reminds me of Eli. YOURE SO INCAPABLE OF MAKING AN EMOTIONAL CONNECTION WITH OTHER PEOPLE. not at home, at home i have my two best friends who I'm emotionally connected with... jeff said thats why he didnt want to be around anymore, cause he liked me and he knew i didnt feel the same way... FUCK FEELING SAD
Back to studying...