Well.....
I wish I had the luxury of free speech. But due to courtesy, I honestly don't. It is my choice and I know this. But in my opinion, my choice to express what is on my mind may be more of a price than I am willing to pay. I would rather just be a person that is there to listen, and offer advice if it is needed. I think I should feel angry at times, and there are moments when I am...but then I resolve it away. And it fades into the background along with every other thing that...I dunno. Paint a picture, give it words. Paint a picture of who I am in your mind, abusive, mindfucking, noncaring, emotionally spineless, a fool martyr, hypocrite, doormat, whatever any of you want...as long as it makes your life easier to have an escape goat to make you feel better. I don't get this world...seriously. I can draw my own conclusions, but that is it, and they will have to remain MY conclusions, that I guess I am not really willing to share right now. Heh....It's kinda funny, I guess one conclusion I am willing to put out from the years on this earth, is that people can be full of self serving hyprocritical bullshit. Oh yeah, a formal declaration, I'm swearing off of relationships for a year at the least. My heart hurts....it sucks.