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i was just thinking, as i was hopping facebook profiles and landed on a kid i was involved with sorta for a little bit. and what i was thinking is that he is really awful. not exactly outright mean or anything like that. just everything he believes in, everything he is, is just terrible as far as people go. he's a tool, to say the least. and i wonder, why do i never realize these things when i meet these guys? obviously, at the time, i think they are great and totally worth my time. and even after it ends sometimes i still think they are great. but then time passes and it's like POW all of a sudden i realize- they were terrible!!! i'm not saying this counts for every guy i've been involved with. luckily i have met some wonderful dudes in my time that i still consider close friends. but then i look at the ones who just really suck and i am somewhat embarrassed.