einstein

[_queenoftragedy]

i am useless, and i am crying. the reason is simple.
and why am i always underappreciated. and why do i even cry. it happens all the time.
but this time it hurts. and i don't know why.
and my emotions are silly.
my life is so dull.
and i just wrote 4 pages in my journal about nothing. don't ask how i did it.

and all i need is someone to talk to.
but no one is there.

i didn't even ask for this. but i get it.

and i want you to read this. you won't. you don't care.

i want to give up on you.
but i think i want you there more than i don't.

i just wanted one person.
but it blew up on me. because you wouldn't pick me.
i am really really useless to you.

but no one will understand because it is just me who does.
and the ones who will ask won't know. because they won't ask in the first place.

i am crushed silly.
there is so much about me that no one knows. and i want someone to know that about me. the part that no one knows.
and thanks for hurting me.