Scared
I guess it is finally hitting me that Bryan has surgery on Tuesday.
Today in a week I will be sitting in a hospital laying on the bed next to him holding his hand praying that he can't feel any pain. I will be the strength he needs to get through the next three months( or so the doctors say) it will take for him to even feel normal again. It makes me extremely nervous for this. Not that I don't feel I am up to the job, I just hope that I do it okay. I want to be there for him and do anything he wants, I just don't want my worry to shine through. I need to be strong for him and I will be I just want him to fully recover so things can back to normal for him. I want him to be able to do the things he used to be, be the person he, and he will, but it will take time. I know that he has family and friends that care and that will be there for him but I know he will be looking to me with those green eyes, he will be looking to me to come his hair, and just be there, and the greatest thing of all is that I can't wait!! I want to be that and so much more!
PS. All of his neighbors saw that Melinda wrote "Just Married" on the back of my car so they came over to the house and congratulated him today...is'nt that funny?!? And we ARE NOT married by the way!
Today in a week I will be sitting in a hospital laying on the bed next to him holding his hand praying that he can't feel any pain. I will be the strength he needs to get through the next three months( or so the doctors say) it will take for him to even feel normal again. It makes me extremely nervous for this. Not that I don't feel I am up to the job, I just hope that I do it okay. I want to be there for him and do anything he wants, I just don't want my worry to shine through. I need to be strong for him and I will be I just want him to fully recover so things can back to normal for him. I want him to be able to do the things he used to be, be the person he, and he will, but it will take time. I know that he has family and friends that care and that will be there for him but I know he will be looking to me with those green eyes, he will be looking to me to come his hair, and just be there, and the greatest thing of all is that I can't wait!! I want to be that and so much more!
PS. All of his neighbors saw that Melinda wrote "Just Married" on the back of my car so they came over to the house and congratulated him today...is'nt that funny?!? And we ARE NOT married by the way!