oh god
well it happened. we broke up. im kinda in the limbo where I have some grasp of what is going on, but im really just oblivious to days to come. i feel sick, and im probably going to vomit. i hope that we are doing the right thing. Because this much pain better be worth something. I dont think I have ever felt like more of a failure. I pray to not wake up for like a week. AHHH I HATE EVERYONE. I hate everyone for not caring and I hate everyone who is looking at me waiting for me to lose it. I just want to skip all of this and get to the moving on part. I want to figure out what the hell I am supposed to be doing with my life. I am really really really bitter right now. I dont know what I'm going to do with myself. Who I'm going to hang out with...there are only a few people I dont want to punch in the face right now. Me thinks me going to scream. Taking control now. I love him soo much so why can't it work? I want it to work. OH I FORGOT....ME MAKES A LOUSY GIRLFRIEND. I feel so shitty and sad. so sad. so sad. so sad. You know what? What Viccy? I am very much not in touch with my emotions right now.