Jul 30, 2005 03:03
im watching my cat, shes sitting in front of me, watching, smelling, now and then rising to go find something to entertain her. She likes my socks, I was trying to get one on this morning and she grabbed it, draggged it out of my room in her mouth, down the stairs, and to the kitchen. She just dropped it there as if nothing happened. I love her.
i worked tell 12AM today, lots of cleaning.
I dont know what to do with myself when im not working anymore. I cant just call up josh or people, I feel distant from everyone. My cat has her leg stuck out at a very odd angle she takes a pause from her grooming and looks up at me.
In a way I look forward to school so I can meet new people, I need someone to love who isnt already in a relationship and can love me back.
I feel trashy. Good morning tod. My sculpture called "The Thinking Man" I received at christmas is staring at me.
I remeber as a kid... all the way back in elementary school, I wanted to be different.
Time passes, I grow up rather normal but alittle more shy then most. I get to middle school. By the end I learned alot about our soceity and my peers social habits. I end up finding out i prefer guys sexually, I get depressed, I try to seperate myself from everyone else. they all disgust me.
I guess I got my wish I had back when I was just a tiny kid, Im different but not in anyway I whished for
fuck spellcheck im way too tired