on freedom.
im afraid that i too dislike things more than i like things. the opposite was true till i met people.
so i followed my schedule on the dot today, and hey i got my check in the mail as a reward? God. He works in mysterious ways.
let's see classes. 8:30 (yeah no didnt go to that one), but acting was fucking hilarious...some kids are so damn funny. especially this one kid, ben, during improv: "you told yourself u were going to quit pot this time."
i didnt get in the 'maya in the modern world' class which is part of the life that sucks...i really wanted to take a class on zapatistas, you know bring out the revolutionary in me. lol.
am i unjustified in sort of being disappointed with amy? [no.] i don't understand what power would see her being at that school (Bucknell) as any good. i love her duh but for the sake of her personhood, i wish college provided her a greater space for maturity, social consciousness, intellectual wisdom... of course i am merely being judgmental, but my heart sort of crushes when i see her stoop to the level of sorority barbie. lola says u have to let people figure it out, but are some so weak they constantly feed into what society perceives as normal behavior for a 20 year old. perhaps it is enjoyabe....i don't know. do we not all live in the same world, where genocide, and politics and important things are simultaneously going on? or do some have the ability and privilege to ignore the world and preoccupy their minds and engage in things so superficial? maybe they have more fun? enjoy life more? Why do I believe Satre's bad faith to be so bad? I cringed upon learning about it in Existentialism. Is it that i feel it is so easy to just "live," and marry, and have kids, and have a career, but it ...is so fulfilling and meaningful, unconventional, revolutionary, and even memorializing to seek, make history, change the world, invent, sacrifice, or die for something? The only life for me is adventurous one. A growing, infinite, ever-expanding one. How can one be satisfied of life without ever have been there or without ever have done that?
I want souls to emerge out of bodies before God gets to them.
so i followed my schedule on the dot today, and hey i got my check in the mail as a reward? God. He works in mysterious ways.
let's see classes. 8:30 (yeah no didnt go to that one), but acting was fucking hilarious...some kids are so damn funny. especially this one kid, ben, during improv: "you told yourself u were going to quit pot this time."
i didnt get in the 'maya in the modern world' class which is part of the life that sucks...i really wanted to take a class on zapatistas, you know bring out the revolutionary in me. lol.
am i unjustified in sort of being disappointed with amy? [no.] i don't understand what power would see her being at that school (Bucknell) as any good. i love her duh but for the sake of her personhood, i wish college provided her a greater space for maturity, social consciousness, intellectual wisdom... of course i am merely being judgmental, but my heart sort of crushes when i see her stoop to the level of sorority barbie. lola says u have to let people figure it out, but are some so weak they constantly feed into what society perceives as normal behavior for a 20 year old. perhaps it is enjoyabe....i don't know. do we not all live in the same world, where genocide, and politics and important things are simultaneously going on? or do some have the ability and privilege to ignore the world and preoccupy their minds and engage in things so superficial? maybe they have more fun? enjoy life more? Why do I believe Satre's bad faith to be so bad? I cringed upon learning about it in Existentialism. Is it that i feel it is so easy to just "live," and marry, and have kids, and have a career, but it ...is so fulfilling and meaningful, unconventional, revolutionary, and even memorializing to seek, make history, change the world, invent, sacrifice, or die for something? The only life for me is adventurous one. A growing, infinite, ever-expanding one. How can one be satisfied of life without ever have been there or without ever have done that?
I want souls to emerge out of bodies before God gets to them.