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i dont even know where to put myself
we got up early today to go and see Jeff in hospital.. it was awful seeing him but then again i couldnt imagine not seeing him.. i wasnt going to pass up my last opportunity to see him just because i wanted to sleep it.
we got there and just talked to the family and stuff.. he was in some sort of coma like sleep thing so he couldnt wake up or anythin.. they said he woke up in the middle of the night for a bit and he was cool.. but not while we were there.
his cancer has spread to his brain.. they said he wouldnt make it through the night.. so that pretty much means hes passed already..
its such a terrible thing..
but i guess hes been pretty good.. he was first diagnosed with cancer 6 years ago and given 3 months to live.. but hes lasted all these years.
after we left the hospital we had to go to Luke's funeral up at Tununda..
i went through so many tissues.. everyone was pretty much a mess.. but it was a nice service.
everyone is still up there now gettin their drink on and stuff but i had to come home because i have work and stuff tomorrow. it would have been cool to be able to stay up there tho..
on top of everything its the 3rd anniversary of Brads death tomorrow.
im probably gonna go up and chill with him for a bit.. i dont know.. i dont have anyone to go with..
its been so full on
i hate crying
i hate even writing all this shit
i hate that i get all emo and fucked up
i hate that it effects everything i do and everyone i talk to
i hate that i cant even get along with anyone anymore..
..
we got up early today to go and see Jeff in hospital.. it was awful seeing him but then again i couldnt imagine not seeing him.. i wasnt going to pass up my last opportunity to see him just because i wanted to sleep it.
we got there and just talked to the family and stuff.. he was in some sort of coma like sleep thing so he couldnt wake up or anythin.. they said he woke up in the middle of the night for a bit and he was cool.. but not while we were there.
his cancer has spread to his brain.. they said he wouldnt make it through the night.. so that pretty much means hes passed already..
its such a terrible thing..
but i guess hes been pretty good.. he was first diagnosed with cancer 6 years ago and given 3 months to live.. but hes lasted all these years.
after we left the hospital we had to go to Luke's funeral up at Tununda..
i went through so many tissues.. everyone was pretty much a mess.. but it was a nice service.
everyone is still up there now gettin their drink on and stuff but i had to come home because i have work and stuff tomorrow. it would have been cool to be able to stay up there tho..
on top of everything its the 3rd anniversary of Brads death tomorrow.
im probably gonna go up and chill with him for a bit.. i dont know.. i dont have anyone to go with..
its been so full on
i hate crying
i hate even writing all this shit
i hate that i get all emo and fucked up
i hate that it effects everything i do and everyone i talk to
i hate that i cant even get along with anyone anymore..
..