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yesterday uhh i jus laid around most of the day but i did clean out my closet..i had 3 big bags of stuff to give away so thats good i guess..practically half my closet is empty now but im glad..now i have room to buy more stuff right? hehe but yeaa my mom was kinda glad i guess but none of the rest of my room is cleaned up so..i have to work on that and then this mornin i got up kinda early and my dad came and got me around 11:45 and took me to the school and i was afraid there was gona be nobody there i knew and all that and as soon as i got out of the car i saw alexis and it made me feel a lot better and i walked in and billy and april and annie and a buncha people were there! i felt so much better about everything..maybe this year isnt gona be so bad after all..i duno but the people there were from youth frontiers..those guys were the coolest people ive ever met..they were just awesome..it was like a mini team trek and it was all about respect and all that and i love that kinda stuff..we did a bunch of team activities and got in small groups with our big sisters and big brothers..my big sister is pretty nice..we didnt really spend any time with them so i duno..she seems cool though..and there were a couple other really cool seniors in my group..this guy jeremy and this girl but i duno her name..she was really really nice though and we danced and sang and all that fun stuff..it was awesome..im really glad i went..i didnt think i was gona like it but i really did..at the end they gave us like..15 minutes and jonny lit a candle in the middle and left the microphone there and people came up if they wanted to say somethin..it was awesome..i definitely wouldve regretted..regreted..whatever..not goin..and i think that it kinda slpit the class in 2..the people who were there were the ones that were accepting and in my opinion..the people i didnt see there were the people that never said a word to me never gave a friendly smile or offered to help or anything..they just completely ignored that fact that me or anyone they didnt know even existed..theyre just plain rude..i dont know them and i dont want to judge but i know a first impression sticks and they didnt make a good one and i dont want anything to do with people like that..the onyl thing im worried about is this..the juniors and seniors who were there helping and stuff are all people who makes good grades and volunteered to do it..theyre good kids..there are still the other like 650 people that are gona be rude and unaccepting and not want to help at all..i duno..i wanna feel better about it but i cant help knowing that its not just gona be a breeze..tomorrow is the open house..hopefully all my teachers will be ok and stuff..ugggh i hate that i have to worry about this..i wish i could just know i would have friends there with me and know my way around and stuff..i mean..it makes it so much easier to know youre not completely alone..it was really awesome though..we all got in a circle and sang lean on me and a buncha other songs and zuel told us a buncha stories about how we should respect ourselves and stuff..i duno..i love that stuff..maybe i should do somethin like that for a living..we made a huge human chair..it was really cool cept i was behind this guy who was kinda sweaty and it was already really hott in there and we had to stand heel to toe so we were like practically grindin withthe person behind us and i was stuck between 2 juniors..but they were both really nice..it was fun and we did a buncha other stuff that was just awesome..im really really glad i went..i got to see karl and stoof and alexis and a buncha people i had no idea i was somewhat friends with..i duno..it was really fun and zuel say some stuff thats really gona stick..it was deep..i duno..it was really awesome and yea i am gona say it was fun and it was awesome like..100 times so get over it..then my dad came and got me and we went and got nathan and joel and he let me drive to the mall but he was freakin out the whole time cause there was construction and stuff and so he was sure i was gona run off the road and so nathan got his book then we killed some time at this really pretty park and we found this huge hill that we're definitely gona go to sled at..itll be awwwwesome then we went to unos and my mom met us there then we came home and jus watched tv ands tuff and then i talked to johns mom and she said shes decided to move to the united states and so that means he will too i guess so thats good but she said they might be in florida but i guess thats better than brasilia right? and i jus talked to him and he said hes not come back before school..cause his friend is comin to stay there on the 2nd or somethin so he wants to stay cause theres gona be some stuff goin on there..that kinda rained on my parade a little..cause i thought it was gona be the 31st at the latest..he said he would stay there and start school late..wow..i really dont even know what to say..what if he stays there and goes to straight to florida or somethin..uggh wow..that was a little shocking...