The things I cannot say
This is bad, its getting to me. I cant believe I said all those things to her, my attitude and lack of trust cost me the only thing I would do anything for. I have the picture of her kissing my cheek in a frame, I edited it on my computer two weeks ago and put it in and its on my desk. I have every picture shes ever sent me on my wall. Some people would think Im crazy but Im crazy about her. Its just getting to me because I havent been in my room in like a week and a half and the first time I go down there the first thing I come across is to dozens of pictures of her. Its making me want to call her right now, its making me miss her so much and wonder what shes doing and if shes missing me. But we agreed to not speak for a few days till shes ready when. I care about her to much to lose her in anyway, whether its friendship or anything else. Ill just listen to music or go study. I got to keep my mind off of her till shes ready cause its just getting me upset. Id do anything for that girl. I just wish shed believe me.