All these things should make me happy to be home again.
Dear Aunt Barbara,
I came across your picture while I was searching through some old negatives of mine. It's hard to admit but I can't say I think about you a lot so the picture was a real shock. It brought back all these feelings of guilt and regret; I don't know if I can ever forgive myself for not calling you before you died. I think I wanted to remember you when you were well. Please understand it wasn't because I didn't love you but the fact that I loved you too much to admit you were fading; my heart couldn't handle your confused voice on the other line, not sure who was calling you. If I could take it back, I would. Well now I want to thank you for having such an impact on my life. I can't recall how many times I've referred back to our trip to New York and my first experience as a city girl. I'll always remember what you told me one morning over breakfast, when the issue of weight came up..."Alex, don't let them get to you. There is so much more in this world and I know you'll shine." I see so much of myself in you, everyday. Your laugh was very infectious and I believe I also carry the ability to make people smile because of you. I see some of the bad attributes as well, and god do I wish you were hear to talk to...you really understood me. Hopefully, Barbara, I really will shine.
Love always,
Alex