What Is and What Isn't?
Ok. So, here's how it goes. I know A LOT of people are going to get upset at me for this one. But these are my feelings and I believe that I need to speak out, be heard, and maybe some of you will understand me. First of all, lately I have NOT been the best in relationships. I have broken hearts and been broken by others. "What's new?" some of you may say. Well, it's not that I don't expect that. But I do feel that if I explain where some of my faults were at, maybe some of you will understand me more. For instance... today, my ex-girlfriend read this journal... like my other recents. She exploded into the fact that it was wrong of me to feel this way... said that we are only in highschool and aren't old enough to feel love or know what love is. Well, the way I see it... if we don't investigate on love this soon... later in life we will begin to lose all practical care for finding out what LOVE really is. Well, in this.. I found that it would be wrong of us to try and act like relationships are just like those "free 3 week trial" downloads online. Second of all, I believe that I should speak my mind on how I feel about you, Sam. People say I'm crushing on you, some of which say things like "you don't know what you're getting yourself into" and "you are just walking right into another hurtful situation". I don't know how you feel about me... truthfully, I don't expect much. Don't take pity for me as I say that either. But the truth is, when we had our conversations... when I got to see you in school.... yeah, those times made me smile, even made my day. Since I don't know how you feel though... and since I've been bombarded with all of these comments about you, I guess it got to me. It somehow made me hold back. I'm pretty sure that out of all the friends I have... like 3 of them actually were happy for me and told me to go for it. But of course at that time I did not know you very well, nor do I really now. But from what I've seen, you are a wonderful soul... one that I could only hope to be around as much as possible. (right there... about two people I know who might read this just went off)
I was listening to a song today, and it made me think. If you wonder why this song makes me feel the way I'm about to explain to you... well, listen to it yourself, it's the only way you'll get the full blow of it. I have this feeling... of worry and hope. I feel that if I were to not go for it today, then I may lose the chance either for a long time or forever. So, I ask you this? Is there a chance for you and I?
This quote you should understand.
"I want to take your hand,
show you the moon, the stars,
take you to the top of the sky,
and even to the bottom of the sea.
And all these places I take you,
I would have you open your voice,
Open your voice to be heard,
because I wish for you to know,
that more people listen than you believe.
And maybe then you can find inside,
just how amazing you really are."
Will you take my hand and let me show you how wealthy in life you can be.... just by being yourself?
I leave that for you, answer as you may. It's your heart, I cannot control that, nor do I wish to. It won't hurt me if you decline. I just figured, I needed to take one step forward to try and see where I can go from here. Let me know when you feel, whether or not you will be mine. Peace out!
(remember, your answer would change nothing in the way of our friendship. Either way, it could only bring us closer ;) )
I was listening to a song today, and it made me think. If you wonder why this song makes me feel the way I'm about to explain to you... well, listen to it yourself, it's the only way you'll get the full blow of it. I have this feeling... of worry and hope. I feel that if I were to not go for it today, then I may lose the chance either for a long time or forever. So, I ask you this? Is there a chance for you and I?
This quote you should understand.
"I want to take your hand,
show you the moon, the stars,
take you to the top of the sky,
and even to the bottom of the sea.
And all these places I take you,
I would have you open your voice,
Open your voice to be heard,
because I wish for you to know,
that more people listen than you believe.
And maybe then you can find inside,
just how amazing you really are."
Will you take my hand and let me show you how wealthy in life you can be.... just by being yourself?
I leave that for you, answer as you may. It's your heart, I cannot control that, nor do I wish to. It won't hurt me if you decline. I just figured, I needed to take one step forward to try and see where I can go from here. Let me know when you feel, whether or not you will be mine. Peace out!
(remember, your answer would change nothing in the way of our friendship. Either way, it could only bring us closer ;) )