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i had a really unsettling dream last night. ever since i woke up my whole day's been out of whack.
one more week and then my life gets completely turned upside down. my car is packed with the first load of moving stuff, and i'm ready to leave... but i'm not sure where i'm ready to go. where did my peace go? where did the hope i had for my future slip away to? this is the most difficult day i've had in weeks. was one dream enough to shake my foundations? we are so fragile, no matter how tough we think we are.
sometimes i feel like my brain won't turn off, sometimes i envy people who seem to go through life so oblivious and unaware of the battle going on around us all the time.
this is spiritual warfare. we are under attack and our enemies want to see us scattered by the wind... but we are seeds, blown from the same stem, and we may be separated by experience and distance but we know that we sprout the same leaves no matter where we land. in christ we're never alone.
i prayed for my heart to be softened and it's remarkable how vulnerable a heart that's not hard anymore becomes. who am i to dictate what kind of support system i need? i am struggling internally and god is shoring me up from within.
lord, let me remember the community that i'm a part of, the relationships you've blessed me with, and the promise of shared experiences to come - no matter who i share them with.
surround me with your love and hope
never let me go
so close that i can feel your every breath
until my heart beings to dance with yours
never let me go
wont you take me to a new place...
where love, love flows heavy
like a waterfall
one more week and then my life gets completely turned upside down. my car is packed with the first load of moving stuff, and i'm ready to leave... but i'm not sure where i'm ready to go. where did my peace go? where did the hope i had for my future slip away to? this is the most difficult day i've had in weeks. was one dream enough to shake my foundations? we are so fragile, no matter how tough we think we are.
sometimes i feel like my brain won't turn off, sometimes i envy people who seem to go through life so oblivious and unaware of the battle going on around us all the time.
this is spiritual warfare. we are under attack and our enemies want to see us scattered by the wind... but we are seeds, blown from the same stem, and we may be separated by experience and distance but we know that we sprout the same leaves no matter where we land. in christ we're never alone.
i prayed for my heart to be softened and it's remarkable how vulnerable a heart that's not hard anymore becomes. who am i to dictate what kind of support system i need? i am struggling internally and god is shoring me up from within.
lord, let me remember the community that i'm a part of, the relationships you've blessed me with, and the promise of shared experiences to come - no matter who i share them with.
surround me with your love and hope
never let me go
so close that i can feel your every breath
until my heart beings to dance with yours
never let me go
wont you take me to a new place...
where love, love flows heavy
like a waterfall