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new journal. hi guys <3. fresh start.
today was.. interesting. i saw david a lot, and he kept sitting close to me at lunch. it kind of bothered me. i still have feelings for him and find him running through my mind constantly, which is completely stupid of me-but i'll get over it. i don't regret dumping him, i'm not used to it at all yet. it's just that i'm an extremely jealous person and it ticks me off that he's already liking another girl. after 3 hours of being broken up, he's already got another girl in line.
if you really want to know more, you can read our conversation-but i'm warning you, it's long. brace yourself.
me: have fun with all your girlfriends.
david: god ur an ass
me: you are
david: what did i do to you?
david: i wanna talk about this now
me: okay david.
me: Ive heard so much shit
me: about you cheating
me: i heard about you and amber
me: i heard a lot of stuff
me: i'm not retarded, i know what goes on
david: nothing happened
david: ur so wrong
me: okay well thats not what ive heard from half the school.
me: how do i know you're not putting on some act
me: like you've always done
me: girls aren't fucking game pieces, david
david: i dunno..u could talk to me about it before irrationally breakin up with me
david: i didnt do shit to uyou
me: they're humans. they have something call feelings
me: i think you knew it was coming
david: yeah i did...
me: we never hung out anymore, we'd always argue
david: yeah
me: you were always out with eliza and mackenzie and them
me: i tried to fix it but it didnt happen
david: u tried to fix it?
david: what the fuck are u talkin about
me: nevermind
david: no tell me
david: WE never made plans
david: i woulda easily ditched them for you
me: well, you could have offered
me: you could have called sometime
david: i dont call people
david: EVER
david: no one
me: instead of telling sarah "blah blah lydia calls too much"
me: okay david, thats low
david: i never said that
me: you cant pick up the phone and dial 7 numbers?
david: why?
me: it's not that hard
david: i dont like talkin on the phone
david: im sorry
me: if you really wanted to do something with me, youd try
david: u just dont even get me
me: okay, that's why you can stay up till like 2:30 on the phone talking with eliza but when your girlfriend calls, you act like you don't even wanna talk to her.
me: that's pretty fucked up.
david: i was talkin to her cause she was upset
me: yeah, well maybe if you weren't so stupid sometimes, i would understand you
david: wow thanks
me: you're welcome.
me: i'm not going to sit here and lie. i'm sick of it
david: i didnt do anything..so u can only be sick of "not doin anything"..which is like 2 weekends.not bad since i see you EVERYDAY in school
me: okay david
me: you know i'm not ever going to believe you with all the shit you say
me: you're a complusive liar
me: i can't even trust what you say
david: okay so it doesnt matter
david: does it make a difference now?
me: so how am i supposed to have a relationship with someone i can't trust?
david: i dunno
me: does what make a difference?
david: u coulda talked to me and listened to what i had to say and then made a decision
david: all u are doing is justifying ur dumpin me
me: maybe so, but it'd just end up into some argument like it always has
me: so i didn't even try.
david: okay, well thats not my problem
me: you were part of the problem though.
me: i don't know-it was hard for me because i couldn't trust you at all
david: u coulda have atleast told me that sooner
david: or while u dumped me
david: cause u were like "its not working, its over, bye"
david: its like "great lydia woke me up dumped me and didnt tell me the issue"
me: well, i had nothing to say.
me: i know i should have told you the issue, but it's all this shit that has been building up
me: the amber thing at the football game, you and amber hooking up right before you asked me out
david: we didnt hook up
me: so much shit
david: i didnt do shit with her
me: i heard you did.
david: well i didnt
me: well i don't know who to believe, honestly
me: i'd say i believe the person who told me more than you with your background.
david: ok
me: and all these things you supposedly said.
david: its all done now so does it matter?
david: does it change anything now
me: the thing with max, you telling jasmine or whoever "let me do what i want with lydia" or whatever the fuck you said
me: well, were you not the one that asked to talk about this? i'm telling you david now so you know.
david: cause they pissed me off
david: i was like get off my case
david: what i do is what i do
me: yeah well doesnt mean you gotta go say shit like that
david: i didnt wanna look like a lil bitch
me: thats a pretty stupid philosophy.
david: who pussies down to a girl
me: who cares david?
david: i do
me: if you really cared you wouldn't have to be so fucking egotistical
david: my ego is fuckin everything
david: u should know that too
david: my fuckin pride is all i got and i dont let a girl walk on me
me: well then it was a problem
me: how is saying something like that going to raise your pride? if i was you, i'd be ashamed
me: girls aren't fucking trophies to shelve, they're people
me: and if you cared about them, you wouldn't have to go and say shit like that to be "cool" and "tough"
david: well thats how i am so apparently YOU cant deal with it
me: i think you need to stop and look at yourself first.
me: i'm not the reason things fucked up in this relationship
david: HA
me: how the hell can you even cheat on someone, that's horrible
me: obviously you don't care about the person enough to stay with them.
david: i didnt cheat on you
me: if you really liked a girl, you wouldn't feel the need to go and find another one.
me: well, whatever, i'm saying in general terms.
david: all it is is you dont trust me...thats ur problem, not mine
me: well let's see here david-WHY don't i trust you?
me: that's a hard one
david: cause ur stupid
me: no, because how much you lie.
david: no i think its cause ur stupid
me: i'm not the stupid one here. stop and look at yourself for once.
me: okay, david think what you'd like
me: although it's completely the opposite
me: i'm not gonna tell you what to think
david: ur just a lil girl who doesnt know shit about relationships
david: so dont run to me givin me advice
me: you're fucking stupid david
me: you're obviously the one that doesn't know shit.
me: when you go out with someone, it means you're commited to them and JUST them.
david: ive forgotten more than u will ever know
me: we're not fucking mormons here, you have a girlfriend, you stay with her and her only
david: and i did with you
david: so stop whining about that
me: i don't see how you can even do that, it disgusts me.
me: well, see now here's the part where i don't believe you and your lying kicks in
david: oook
me:: anyway whatever-im done. have fun with mackenzie or whatever.
david: i will
me:: hope you clue in.
david: fuck that
david: ill play everyone
me: okay david.
me: well then youre fucking stupid and insanely immature.
david: yup thank you
me: i hope you find the girl who will make you stop, and realize that the act you put on is immature and gets you nowhere.
david: never
david: its always worked for me
me: whatever
me: obviously not, because this is how your all relationships end.
david: doesnt bother me
me: okay then
me: have fun with your egotistical self.
me: bye.
today was.. interesting. i saw david a lot, and he kept sitting close to me at lunch. it kind of bothered me. i still have feelings for him and find him running through my mind constantly, which is completely stupid of me-but i'll get over it. i don't regret dumping him, i'm not used to it at all yet. it's just that i'm an extremely jealous person and it ticks me off that he's already liking another girl. after 3 hours of being broken up, he's already got another girl in line.
if you really want to know more, you can read our conversation-but i'm warning you, it's long. brace yourself.
me: have fun with all your girlfriends.
david: god ur an ass
me: you are
david: what did i do to you?
david: i wanna talk about this now
me: okay david.
me: Ive heard so much shit
me: about you cheating
me: i heard about you and amber
me: i heard a lot of stuff
me: i'm not retarded, i know what goes on
david: nothing happened
david: ur so wrong
me: okay well thats not what ive heard from half the school.
me: how do i know you're not putting on some act
me: like you've always done
me: girls aren't fucking game pieces, david
david: i dunno..u could talk to me about it before irrationally breakin up with me
david: i didnt do shit to uyou
me: they're humans. they have something call feelings
me: i think you knew it was coming
david: yeah i did...
me: we never hung out anymore, we'd always argue
david: yeah
me: you were always out with eliza and mackenzie and them
me: i tried to fix it but it didnt happen
david: u tried to fix it?
david: what the fuck are u talkin about
me: nevermind
david: no tell me
david: WE never made plans
david: i woulda easily ditched them for you
me: well, you could have offered
me: you could have called sometime
david: i dont call people
david: EVER
david: no one
me: instead of telling sarah "blah blah lydia calls too much"
me: okay david, thats low
david: i never said that
me: you cant pick up the phone and dial 7 numbers?
david: why?
me: it's not that hard
david: i dont like talkin on the phone
david: im sorry
me: if you really wanted to do something with me, youd try
david: u just dont even get me
me: okay, that's why you can stay up till like 2:30 on the phone talking with eliza but when your girlfriend calls, you act like you don't even wanna talk to her.
me: that's pretty fucked up.
david: i was talkin to her cause she was upset
me: yeah, well maybe if you weren't so stupid sometimes, i would understand you
david: wow thanks
me: you're welcome.
me: i'm not going to sit here and lie. i'm sick of it
david: i didnt do anything..so u can only be sick of "not doin anything"..which is like 2 weekends.not bad since i see you EVERYDAY in school
me: okay david
me: you know i'm not ever going to believe you with all the shit you say
me: you're a complusive liar
me: i can't even trust what you say
david: okay so it doesnt matter
david: does it make a difference now?
me: so how am i supposed to have a relationship with someone i can't trust?
david: i dunno
me: does what make a difference?
david: u coulda talked to me and listened to what i had to say and then made a decision
david: all u are doing is justifying ur dumpin me
me: maybe so, but it'd just end up into some argument like it always has
me: so i didn't even try.
david: okay, well thats not my problem
me: you were part of the problem though.
me: i don't know-it was hard for me because i couldn't trust you at all
david: u coulda have atleast told me that sooner
david: or while u dumped me
david: cause u were like "its not working, its over, bye"
david: its like "great lydia woke me up dumped me and didnt tell me the issue"
me: well, i had nothing to say.
me: i know i should have told you the issue, but it's all this shit that has been building up
me: the amber thing at the football game, you and amber hooking up right before you asked me out
david: we didnt hook up
me: so much shit
david: i didnt do shit with her
me: i heard you did.
david: well i didnt
me: well i don't know who to believe, honestly
me: i'd say i believe the person who told me more than you with your background.
david: ok
me: and all these things you supposedly said.
david: its all done now so does it matter?
david: does it change anything now
me: the thing with max, you telling jasmine or whoever "let me do what i want with lydia" or whatever the fuck you said
me: well, were you not the one that asked to talk about this? i'm telling you david now so you know.
david: cause they pissed me off
david: i was like get off my case
david: what i do is what i do
me: yeah well doesnt mean you gotta go say shit like that
david: i didnt wanna look like a lil bitch
me: thats a pretty stupid philosophy.
david: who pussies down to a girl
me: who cares david?
david: i do
me: if you really cared you wouldn't have to be so fucking egotistical
david: my ego is fuckin everything
david: u should know that too
david: my fuckin pride is all i got and i dont let a girl walk on me
me: well then it was a problem
me: how is saying something like that going to raise your pride? if i was you, i'd be ashamed
me: girls aren't fucking trophies to shelve, they're people
me: and if you cared about them, you wouldn't have to go and say shit like that to be "cool" and "tough"
david: well thats how i am so apparently YOU cant deal with it
me: i think you need to stop and look at yourself first.
me: i'm not the reason things fucked up in this relationship
david: HA
me: how the hell can you even cheat on someone, that's horrible
me: obviously you don't care about the person enough to stay with them.
david: i didnt cheat on you
me: if you really liked a girl, you wouldn't feel the need to go and find another one.
me: well, whatever, i'm saying in general terms.
david: all it is is you dont trust me...thats ur problem, not mine
me: well let's see here david-WHY don't i trust you?
me: that's a hard one
david: cause ur stupid
me: no, because how much you lie.
david: no i think its cause ur stupid
me: i'm not the stupid one here. stop and look at yourself for once.
me: okay, david think what you'd like
me: although it's completely the opposite
me: i'm not gonna tell you what to think
david: ur just a lil girl who doesnt know shit about relationships
david: so dont run to me givin me advice
me: you're fucking stupid david
me: you're obviously the one that doesn't know shit.
me: when you go out with someone, it means you're commited to them and JUST them.
david: ive forgotten more than u will ever know
me: we're not fucking mormons here, you have a girlfriend, you stay with her and her only
david: and i did with you
david: so stop whining about that
me: i don't see how you can even do that, it disgusts me.
me: well, see now here's the part where i don't believe you and your lying kicks in
david: oook
me:: anyway whatever-im done. have fun with mackenzie or whatever.
david: i will
me:: hope you clue in.
david: fuck that
david: ill play everyone
me: okay david.
me: well then youre fucking stupid and insanely immature.
david: yup thank you
me: i hope you find the girl who will make you stop, and realize that the act you put on is immature and gets you nowhere.
david: never
david: its always worked for me
me: whatever
me: obviously not, because this is how your all relationships end.
david: doesnt bother me
me: okay then
me: have fun with your egotistical self.
me: bye.