you need to understand, there's nothing fake about this
Well I guess everything has been pretty ok lately. I haven't been doing much except sit in my room listening to music, being online, and doing homework. I'm such a boring person, it's so sad. But really, what else is there to do? I'm always at school or working, and when I have free time, I don't feel like doing anything. I wish I could see Julie and Ally everyday because when I see them, I feel normal, like how it used to be when we only lived 10 minutes from each other and see each other whenever we wanted to. I mean, I have some great friends to hang out with, but I still just miss them so much and one day a week isn't enough. Sometimes, not even one day because we're too busy with homework for me to go up there. I don't know, I wish things were different somehow. But at least they are where they want to be and I wouldn't want them to be unhappy. I just miss them so much.
I need to talk to a counselor next week for scheduling next semester because I have no idea what else I absolutely need to take. And I need to find out if Central even offers the major I want. If not, I really need to get to looing at colleges and sending in applications, even though it's a little late. I don't know, maybe I'll be stuck at Schoolcraft for another year. I really don't want to do that. As happy as I am being able to go to school here and be close to family and friends, I still can't shake my feeling that I'm missing out. I just want/need to get away from here.
So out of all my crazy career choices, I think that this is what I honestly really truly want to do with my life. It's just really exciting. And watching the web docs on the costume making of Star Wars really got me to seriously think about it. I want to make something that will just make people think "Oh my God, this is amazing." I could really make something out of myself. Like everyone always said "she's going to be something someday. really successful." I always used to think of that as being such a demanding statement, but now I see it as empowering and I want to make that true.
Do I scare boys away or something? I mean, why is no one interested in me?
Ah well, I guess I'm off to do more homeowrk, like usual. Maybe watch some Star Wars like the devoted nerd that I am...
♥
I need to talk to a counselor next week for scheduling next semester because I have no idea what else I absolutely need to take. And I need to find out if Central even offers the major I want. If not, I really need to get to looing at colleges and sending in applications, even though it's a little late. I don't know, maybe I'll be stuck at Schoolcraft for another year. I really don't want to do that. As happy as I am being able to go to school here and be close to family and friends, I still can't shake my feeling that I'm missing out. I just want/need to get away from here.
So out of all my crazy career choices, I think that this is what I honestly really truly want to do with my life. It's just really exciting. And watching the web docs on the costume making of Star Wars really got me to seriously think about it. I want to make something that will just make people think "Oh my God, this is amazing." I could really make something out of myself. Like everyone always said "she's going to be something someday. really successful." I always used to think of that as being such a demanding statement, but now I see it as empowering and I want to make that true.
Do I scare boys away or something? I mean, why is no one interested in me?
Ah well, I guess I'm off to do more homeowrk, like usual. Maybe watch some Star Wars like the devoted nerd that I am...
♥