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wow..havent updated in like 2 million years. wow so much to say..
im at beccas, we were gonna go to the park and watch baseball
but becca decided to be a retard haha and we walked back to her house
we ate pizza...yeah thats sucide for me but wtfe idc
i came here cuase im extremly stressed out and high strung and i have so
much shit on my mind its ridiculas
stress list
-my stomach is totally fucked up
i have to get this weird ass operation
so they can figure out whats wrong with it
i cant eat
*caffine
*soda
*fatty foods
*oily foods
*sugars
*oh and the normal...dairy (lactose)
-i went to dr. they drew 3 test tubes of blood
from my arm and i almost passed out
-NYSMA tmrw at 4:30
oh did i mention im definatly not ready?
-i forgot my moms b-day and im a total bitch
and i hate myself
-marking period ends tmrw and im failing so much
-exams...i bullshited this whole year and its gonna
bite me in the ass
-LONG DISTANCE RELASHENSHIPS
-of course you....
-the plans are so fucked up for the hotel prom party
i was sopposed to go with jasmine cause we arent
going to normal prom just the party, and i paid for her
and i definatly cant go unelss her mom covers for us
and im sleeping over. so she tells me today shes going
to prom cause jerry invited her and julie was invited to
but she has a show...so i m sopposed to chill while they
are at prom and i obviously cant tell my parnts im at her
fucking house cause i wont be. oh and when i go to the party
im going to feel like a fucking retard, oh not to mention completly
left out cause she would be hanging otu with everyone all night
while im at home. sounds like i want to fuck this and get my money
back. asap
-i miss you so much
-ap euro text notes
-confermation speach and hebrew
i keep having like panic breakdowns and its really not helping anything
i just want to stay home in my room and just lie down and never leave
its so fucked up