I found the card where you wrote it out with the pictures of your mother.
Packed ready to go.
My ship set sail.
To go on a long ride a long vacation
A life different than the one that dissatisfied me
blurs and spotches of color spinning around my head
On my caurosel of dreams, the wonderland not in my thoughts
or in my head
the ground was moving, tilted a bit
your face I couldn't make out through the dizziness
the light headedness
our blood ran thin with our eyes all a glow
oh how I loved this life, how I loved you so.
Everytime I saw you I knew what we'd do, run off and be the kids
the immature innocent girls we were
there were tears behind our smiles there was fun all the time,
no struggling and strife, no not in front of good company
we loved each other
and everyone like us
Us who were two girls wrapped up,
tied up in our lives and ourselves
That one night when I buggered you
heckling, pestering
the jokes were real, the rumors were true
oh how could you do that to me?
Our love was so true.
I wouldn't've known, sitting there, everyone's eyes ablaze and mine locked on you
with my big sister, my mother sitting next to you the only confidant you'd have
and I was left to sit on the curb as everyone sat in the thick green grass laughing and rejoicing,
in the last night of our lives
I prayed to the lord
the one they made me forget:the one I knew I heard
to give you back to me, I wanted you back in every way
That's why I walked you that night miles in the heat to meet my "friend" at our destination
that ugly, trashy, fretfull night
the one we look back on and smile at
And the time when despiration was only half of it
and I was sent away
to place you hear about only in poems
where a man serves soup that gets thrown back at him
you were the only left
the only one who knew
who cared
I know you cared
We loved each other so much
I can't help but to think there will always be something missing
something gone.
When I make a joke and turn to see if you're there with a look of acknowledgement
but no one will be there
No one ever knew, ever comprehended
none but us wrapped up, tied up
in each other
I hate you because I love you so much
I hate you because for some reason I feel like you don't feel the same
but I know you do, because when you went home I know you cried.
When I went home to a place unfamiliar I know you cried because I did too.
Like I know you're crying now and all I want is you.
I want to make my public annoucement
my public apology, if only I'd get the guts to put this in the past
for a better tomorrow.
So here's the best you'll get for now. I know you'd do same.
because we're just like eachother.
Please be ok so I will be too, because when I'm crying I'm crying with you
Because we know eachother so well
Wrapped up tied up in our lives and eachother
My ship set sail.
To go on a long ride a long vacation
A life different than the one that dissatisfied me
blurs and spotches of color spinning around my head
On my caurosel of dreams, the wonderland not in my thoughts
or in my head
the ground was moving, tilted a bit
your face I couldn't make out through the dizziness
the light headedness
our blood ran thin with our eyes all a glow
oh how I loved this life, how I loved you so.
Everytime I saw you I knew what we'd do, run off and be the kids
the immature innocent girls we were
there were tears behind our smiles there was fun all the time,
no struggling and strife, no not in front of good company
we loved each other
and everyone like us
Us who were two girls wrapped up,
tied up in our lives and ourselves
That one night when I buggered you
heckling, pestering
the jokes were real, the rumors were true
oh how could you do that to me?
Our love was so true.
I wouldn't've known, sitting there, everyone's eyes ablaze and mine locked on you
with my big sister, my mother sitting next to you the only confidant you'd have
and I was left to sit on the curb as everyone sat in the thick green grass laughing and rejoicing,
in the last night of our lives
I prayed to the lord
the one they made me forget:the one I knew I heard
to give you back to me, I wanted you back in every way
That's why I walked you that night miles in the heat to meet my "friend" at our destination
that ugly, trashy, fretfull night
the one we look back on and smile at
And the time when despiration was only half of it
and I was sent away
to place you hear about only in poems
where a man serves soup that gets thrown back at him
you were the only left
the only one who knew
who cared
I know you cared
We loved each other so much
I can't help but to think there will always be something missing
something gone.
When I make a joke and turn to see if you're there with a look of acknowledgement
but no one will be there
No one ever knew, ever comprehended
none but us wrapped up, tied up
in each other
I hate you because I love you so much
I hate you because for some reason I feel like you don't feel the same
but I know you do, because when you went home I know you cried.
When I went home to a place unfamiliar I know you cried because I did too.
Like I know you're crying now and all I want is you.
I want to make my public annoucement
my public apology, if only I'd get the guts to put this in the past
for a better tomorrow.
So here's the best you'll get for now. I know you'd do same.
because we're just like eachother.
Please be ok so I will be too, because when I'm crying I'm crying with you
Because we know eachother so well
Wrapped up tied up in our lives and eachother