This has been a long time coming . . . .
Just thought that I'd put down some idle thoughts that have been running around in my head for awhile now. Some of them are what I have been able to pull out from the mess that I have become and others are just things that I have found along the way.
*my heart's been turned inside out
ripped apart and torn to shreads
spread all out for everyone to see
just how much of a mess you've made of me*
*i just want you to hold me one last time
look deep into my eyes and see how much i've cried
past the broken dreams and shattered hopes
into the shadows of my tattered heart
down to the place where sorrows made its lair
here in this gloomy, ill-forgoten space
lurks a hatred longing to escape
pent up anger rages deep within
nothing good can come from it but a horrible sin
it grows cold there quickly and no warnings ever fair
death blows in on the back of an icy cold wind
it is no ordinary death, it's the death of a spirit
one that used to shine so brightly you could almost see it*
"what do you do when you look in the mirror
and staring at you is why he's not here?
what do you say when everything's said?
how do you cry when every tear you shed
won't ever bring him back again?
i hate myself for loving you"
"the first time i saw you i knew it would never last
i'm not half what i wish i was
i'm so angry
i don't think it'll ever pass
and i was bad news for you just because
i ever meant to hurt you"
"i don't stop breathinge every time the phone rings
my heart don't race when someone's at my door
i've almost given up thinkin your ever gonna call
i don't believe in magic anymore"
"i forget to dream in color
i am better off alone
honest hearts are undercover
we are shadows on our own"
"you gotta tell me if you're going to break my heart, cause i don't want to take a chance . . . and if it ain't true all it's gonna be, is nothing but a poor romance . . . so give me that promise to hold on, and i'll never let you go . . . i gotta have something to go on, oh let me know now . . ."
and now finally, after my wonderful random rant, ill leave you with this:
"Me without you is like shoes without laces,
A nerd without braces
And asentencewithnospaces."
*my heart's been turned inside out
ripped apart and torn to shreads
spread all out for everyone to see
just how much of a mess you've made of me*
*i just want you to hold me one last time
look deep into my eyes and see how much i've cried
past the broken dreams and shattered hopes
into the shadows of my tattered heart
down to the place where sorrows made its lair
here in this gloomy, ill-forgoten space
lurks a hatred longing to escape
pent up anger rages deep within
nothing good can come from it but a horrible sin
it grows cold there quickly and no warnings ever fair
death blows in on the back of an icy cold wind
it is no ordinary death, it's the death of a spirit
one that used to shine so brightly you could almost see it*
"what do you do when you look in the mirror
and staring at you is why he's not here?
what do you say when everything's said?
how do you cry when every tear you shed
won't ever bring him back again?
i hate myself for loving you"
"the first time i saw you i knew it would never last
i'm not half what i wish i was
i'm so angry
i don't think it'll ever pass
and i was bad news for you just because
i ever meant to hurt you"
"i don't stop breathinge every time the phone rings
my heart don't race when someone's at my door
i've almost given up thinkin your ever gonna call
i don't believe in magic anymore"
"i forget to dream in color
i am better off alone
honest hearts are undercover
we are shadows on our own"
"you gotta tell me if you're going to break my heart, cause i don't want to take a chance . . . and if it ain't true all it's gonna be, is nothing but a poor romance . . . so give me that promise to hold on, and i'll never let you go . . . i gotta have something to go on, oh let me know now . . ."
and now finally, after my wonderful random rant, ill leave you with this:
"Me without you is like shoes without laces,
A nerd without braces
And asentencewithnospaces."