hey old friend
Wow.. this thing has become some kind of buried treasure time portal thing. It's interesting though to look back and remember exactly how I felt and exactly who I was feeling at that moment. Trying to summarize up my year would be a mad game of catch up.. so I won't.
As always, I have absolutely nothing figured out.
I've been convinced that I found the girl I was going to marry. I've been convinced that the pain of losing her would keep me in bed all day. I've been convinced that I will always be in love with her, and this feeling of emptiness lingering in my chest is because I am no longer wearing the ring she put on my finger.. which means this feeling will continue to linger. Even at times when I thought I felt my blood actually boiling through my veins, I knew all she had to do was kiss me and everything would be all right. We were hot and cold, but somehow always comfortable. I see her every day, but my heart still drops when I look at her.
And yet I have to go on day by day trying to convince myself that this is what we need. That this pain is temporary and will lead to bigger and better things.
I'll never meet another girl like her... but maybe that's what I need.
I suppose next time I update this thing, I'll have a new set of problems that I don't have figured out either.
Until then, I gotta potty train my puppy.
As always, I have absolutely nothing figured out.
I've been convinced that I found the girl I was going to marry. I've been convinced that the pain of losing her would keep me in bed all day. I've been convinced that I will always be in love with her, and this feeling of emptiness lingering in my chest is because I am no longer wearing the ring she put on my finger.. which means this feeling will continue to linger. Even at times when I thought I felt my blood actually boiling through my veins, I knew all she had to do was kiss me and everything would be all right. We were hot and cold, but somehow always comfortable. I see her every day, but my heart still drops when I look at her.
And yet I have to go on day by day trying to convince myself that this is what we need. That this pain is temporary and will lead to bigger and better things.
I'll never meet another girl like her... but maybe that's what I need.
I suppose next time I update this thing, I'll have a new set of problems that I don't have figured out either.
Until then, I gotta potty train my puppy.