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I was sad before, but I was a numb sad. I was sad for her and I was sad for me, but my selfishness was the dominant factor and I saw the good in what happened and just saw how we can both grow without eachother. But now she's leaving. And it's possible that I'll never see her again. Now my selfish thoughts have shifted and I realize that I've never really really CRIED hard about what happened. I've cried, but not shake you to your bones crying. Right now crying. What the fuck have I done... She's leaving because there's nothing for her to stay for. I would have been the one thing that she stayed for. And I threw it all away. It's a scary realization.
They give me their everything, I take and I take, and I throw it away. I still have their everything and there's nothing left for them. I hate it. I fucking hate it. Twice a day I wish for one thing, and its that I change. Not for me, but for everyone that I hurt. I fucking hate it.
I'm sorry...
They give me their everything, I take and I take, and I throw it away. I still have their everything and there's nothing left for them. I hate it. I fucking hate it. Twice a day I wish for one thing, and its that I change. Not for me, but for everyone that I hurt. I fucking hate it.
I'm sorry...