life:1 big soap opera
man today was the worst. i totally blew of my freinds and i feel like shyt for doing so. i have been in much solitude. school is killing me, and just life in general is gonig down the drain. i got in an arguement with my parents today over school in which i called my mom a bitch. i feel so bad. i just can't control myself. my life is just like not going well.i planned to run away . as i was gathering my things my mom came into the room and we had a long talk. i told her how my life has lost its fun. how all the pressure they put on me leads to me being a hermit in my house. after alot of agreeing and disagreeing she decided she wasnt going to control my life anymore.i can do whatever i want and she would have no saying. at first this was a relief but i realized how bad it really was. now its basically me on my own.this unlimited freedom is scary. like my life can head in a wrong direction and no1 would be there to stand by my side and help me get through it. i just feel like a big screw up.i let down my freinds and my parents.