an open letter to you
dear jeremy daniel green,
i am writing this because its been far too long. i was seventeen the last time i exchanged words with you. i am now 21. i want you to know everything. everything you have done to me. i want you to know how you have single-handedly ruined my chances of having a relationship again. i have never been the same since we broke up. the fact that we broke up on such bad terms still haunts me. you're the only ex i can honestly say i'm not friends with. and sometimes i wonder why. you fucked things up just as bad as i did, but somehow everything was my fault. you did the same thing i did, but somehow what i did was worse. you punished me and i took it. i did what you wanted me to do..and for what? nothing. absolutely nothing. i have wanted nothing more than to dial your number and just to hear your voice. maybe drive by your house. leave a note on your doorstep...but alas, i have done none of that. the problem is, every single guy i meet and date, i instantly compare to you. do they kiss the same? hug the same? make me feel the same way? the answer has always been no. will the answer always be no? i hope not. but i hope that with this, something will happen...maybe i will feel better now that i have written this down somewhere. i hope one day we can talk, talk like old friends. i hope one day i can call you a friend again...
love always,
jennifer dianne moore