Locked in a glass box and the edges make me bleed....

[_poetic_doll_]

I’ve locked myself away in a glass box.

That fact is enough to disturb me. But it gets worse. I can’t find the key.

I feel as though I am only living a half-life right now and that scares the hell out of me. I’ve always believed I should live life to the fullest but right now I’m incapable of doing that. Deep down I know I have to change that, do

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Hey now, although this was short and sweet, well sad i guess i still want to comment on it. Now look you, I may not be able to do magic like harry potter or shoot an arrow at the man who catches your eye like cupid but i can say you are kidding yourself to think you live in a glass box. You are such a lovely person. You are so confident, smart, beautiful, gorgeous, happy, crazy and all rounded cool gal i can't not see how you could be so sad.

I think i am one of those gals you have not blocked out yet, and i hope not. Even if you truied i could get through your "glass box". Phoebe i know its tough as a 14, nearly 15 yr old right now, life sucks, you feel trapped, unloved as everyone else has a boyfriend or partner and they are living happily ever after for now. It tough when pple ask things of you, for advice when you really have no idea but to say what you think might be the best answer. Pple come to you b/c they trust you, they think you can help and although ur now super women you seem so capable of being her. Your far more then just an ordinary 14/nearly 15 yr old. So much more i'd fill the bible 10 times with how special and different you are.

Like you told me about my silly boy issues, one day he will se you and see those bright baby blues you've got and wont be able to turn away. Its hard, everyone knows its hard. It those lucky ones who find someone for them round this age and although everyone seems to have someone else. And yeah its sucks but your not alone, i know so many pple how are in the same boat and i myself am there right beside you. Its hard, hell hard i say. IN fact you know what. Stuff em! Boys a re stupid and arse holes, they don’t get any better and its rare to find one that isn't, just looks at the guys you already no (not naming names) Camreon is the only decent guy i know yet he too is single and that’s a waste i say. He is so wonderful like yourself, its amazing that you both haven’t been tagged and roped up already. Its just i brought him up to show you guys have it too, many pple do. You're not alone and you never will be. It's hard for guys to notice you (you as in girls in general) at this age, its not till years later will they see what they should've seen ages back, just look at the movie a walk to remember. It took him a great deal to open his eyes. And even so, Guys are dumb ares, most are except for the occasional few, they just want to have fun and explore different girls to se what they like. They are not into relationship not till they are ready to get married. They just want to have fun and if it works of rages then that’s great. Some last ages b/c he has been waiting ages and something has just clicked for the first time and he wants it to last. Everything guy is different of course but i hope you understand me.

This may sound SO stereotypical but if you can project that confident and i don't care self which i know so well lives inside you, you just wait. YOU JUST WAIT my love and see. I will bet you now that with in these next few year, I no years is ages but u just wait. U will find someone of the male agenda who you just click with like you do with me and Nic. He will see what I can see and nothing else will matter but you. Now please be happy, I want you to smile and laugh and be your great wonderful self i’ve loved and miss talking to. You get out of that glass box, get happy, its your Birthday coming!!!!! Your gonna be 15 HOW cool is that’s, you’ve got an iPod for it already, OGM!!! You’re going into yr10, that’s so cool, the last year and then college, Two more years after that then you can join me at UNI!!! Your on your way and you will see, I tell you will see. Live life, not give a toss about boys and just wait, he will come to you and you’ll look back and see how silly this post was. Be excited, its 2006, a new year a new beginning, school is coming back. I know you love that, now its time to get DUX (again*cough smartarse*cough) and be the best you can be, to me you already are perfect and there’s no more I see that needs changing, well except more posts from Kat hahahha jjks but, *Runs off and puts on Big Kev outfit "I’M EXCITED!!!! I’m excited about you and what life will bring you this year, now go out and live girl, be happy!”