irritated.
i feel like crap. not because of last night...(had fun) but because sav's dad is a jackass. he's SO mean to me.
today he picked her up at ten am. was ten min late...no big deal. took me about twenty min to convince her to go to him (just had got up at nine so she was playing w/ toys...and set on doing just that). we walk outside and i'm explaining to him her night routine because...
he has her for the night : ****)
i've spent maybe three nights in two years away from her...and even when i was away, she stayed at my house w/ my mom. so, she's never been away overnight. : ( sad sad sad. i don't even know what to do when i don't have my baby girl to wake up to.
i think he gets a kick out of being an ass. everything, anything...i said he'd take offense too. i started off just saying, "i know she'll be great for you, BUT if she isn't...please be honest w/ me and keep her best interests at the front of your mind. if she's not going to bed well, or if she gets very little sleep...you need to tell me." seems like an obvious thing right? nope. he NEVER tells me anything about his time w/ her. like punishes me or something. fricking irritating.
he just is nasty. funny that i spent 3 1/2 years w/ him.
so, sav's gone from 10am today til 2pm tomorrow. i hate letting him see me cry : *(
only good news, new year's eve was fun. went to my friend noah's apt to watch supersize me and watch the ball drop and do a little drinking. i was so nervous to go over. he's a friend...i've known him forever and i was SO nervous. kinda have a crush ; ) don't really know what he's thinking...but it did get awkward at the end...the whole moving-toward-each-other-on-the-couch, it's-3-am-and-i-have-to-leave-soon, walking-me-out-to-my-car, big-hug, was-there-supposed-to-be-more-w/-that-hug? you know what i'm talking about : ) lol.
more good news, my good friend eliz that i lived a few doors down from when i dormed at state...she's coming to see me today!!! woohoo. damn u of m is in the rose bowl so i'll be sporting my state green and white : ) lol.
i'm ordering a shirt from neighborhoodies.com today. what should it say?
something moosealisicous. that's for sure.
hope everyone had a fun and safe new year's eve. leave me messages to make me smile : (
today he picked her up at ten am. was ten min late...no big deal. took me about twenty min to convince her to go to him (just had got up at nine so she was playing w/ toys...and set on doing just that). we walk outside and i'm explaining to him her night routine because...
he has her for the night : ****)
i've spent maybe three nights in two years away from her...and even when i was away, she stayed at my house w/ my mom. so, she's never been away overnight. : ( sad sad sad. i don't even know what to do when i don't have my baby girl to wake up to.
i think he gets a kick out of being an ass. everything, anything...i said he'd take offense too. i started off just saying, "i know she'll be great for you, BUT if she isn't...please be honest w/ me and keep her best interests at the front of your mind. if she's not going to bed well, or if she gets very little sleep...you need to tell me." seems like an obvious thing right? nope. he NEVER tells me anything about his time w/ her. like punishes me or something. fricking irritating.
he just is nasty. funny that i spent 3 1/2 years w/ him.
so, sav's gone from 10am today til 2pm tomorrow. i hate letting him see me cry : *(
only good news, new year's eve was fun. went to my friend noah's apt to watch supersize me and watch the ball drop and do a little drinking. i was so nervous to go over. he's a friend...i've known him forever and i was SO nervous. kinda have a crush ; ) don't really know what he's thinking...but it did get awkward at the end...the whole moving-toward-each-other-on-the-couch, it's-3-am-and-i-have-to-leave-soon, walking-me-out-to-my-car, big-hug, was-there-supposed-to-be-more-w/-that-hug? you know what i'm talking about : ) lol.
more good news, my good friend eliz that i lived a few doors down from when i dormed at state...she's coming to see me today!!! woohoo. damn u of m is in the rose bowl so i'll be sporting my state green and white : ) lol.
i'm ordering a shirt from neighborhoodies.com today. what should it say?
something moosealisicous. that's for sure.
hope everyone had a fun and safe new year's eve. leave me messages to make me smile : (