im just whining so you dont have to read this...i dont see why anyone would want to
okay...first of all...i dont like that whole 'my lj' tab...i think it is compleatly pointless.
well i have disided to try out for cheerleading in april...its something that i have always wanted to be...a cheerleader that is...and its for me...not for anyone elce...therefore im making the desision to do it...no matter what anyone says...its for me and this year i have been being me and i have the cheerleader attitude and now am in shape egnough to be one...its my choise and no one is going to change it.
so im sure your wondering why i babbled in that last paragraph...well...i was just talking to david and he was being kinda grumpy...so i was telling him a bunch of things that he doesnt care about (like always)...and i was like 'have i told you that im trying out for cheerleading in april' and he was like 'why?' so i said 'to keep in shape, this is the best shape that i have ever been in and i want to keep it up, and i have wanted to be a cheerleader since i was little' so then he got all anger about it so i asked him 'whats the big deal anyways?' and he said something like (i have to say something like otherwise he will say 'i didnt say that') 'i dont want to think about it and i havent in a while'...okay well i figured out that it was because Sara wanted to be a cheerleader...and i get that it may make him a little upset to think about that but i dont see why he would get mad at me and tell me it is a stupid decision. im not doing it for the aleged popularity that you get out of it...i wouldnt...and i hate one of the girls on the squad...im doing it for me...its a goal to me...ive always wanted to be a cheerleader. so i was quite for a while and he was like 'i have to go shower' so i kind of had an attitude because he was like being mean to me before so i was like 'okay.' and he said 'whats wrong?' and i said 'nothing' so he said 'you sound pissed off or something' and i was like 'so?' and he said 'i love you' and me, still being pissy disided to be a bitch and said 'okay' then he hung up on me...what kind of person does that? i would never do that...i would stay on the phone and be really sad and might start crying because i really do love him but when im in a bad mood im not about to tell anyone that i love them...so i got online and saw that he was online so i said 'i love you too' well he didnt say anything so i said 'im sorry im just not good with sertain people being mean to me' and he still didnt say anything so i said 'fine if you dont want to talk to me' and he still hasnt said anything. i dont fricken understand this boy! he is an ass to me about nothing then thells me he loves me then wont talk to me...i know what your thinking 'he is playing games with my head'...but i get how bad that hurts so im not going to confront him about it...and Sara was his best friend...and now she is gone...so i see how bad that can hurt...but i still dont get why he would be mad at me for it! he doesnt tell me anything...well at least about him...he tells me things about other people but i dont know anything about him, you can even ask him if i do and he will say that i dont.
oh and the reason im writing in here when i would usually be saying all this on the phone with someone: the person that i talk to about everything is david...i dont talk to anyone elce about anything that bugs me. so lately i have been on the search for a new guy best friend...the search is going good...i dont really know though...i think mitch is trying to get the job...but there is nothing special about him...like there is about david. oh and the other person who might have a chance at being my new best friend is jared yanez...i have been talking to him for like a week now and already he is such an awsome person but i did go out with his brother...and i dont know which guys i can trust as just friends. so i dunno.
well i have disided to try out for cheerleading in april...its something that i have always wanted to be...a cheerleader that is...and its for me...not for anyone elce...therefore im making the desision to do it...no matter what anyone says...its for me and this year i have been being me and i have the cheerleader attitude and now am in shape egnough to be one...its my choise and no one is going to change it.
so im sure your wondering why i babbled in that last paragraph...well...i was just talking to david and he was being kinda grumpy...so i was telling him a bunch of things that he doesnt care about (like always)...and i was like 'have i told you that im trying out for cheerleading in april' and he was like 'why?' so i said 'to keep in shape, this is the best shape that i have ever been in and i want to keep it up, and i have wanted to be a cheerleader since i was little' so then he got all anger about it so i asked him 'whats the big deal anyways?' and he said something like (i have to say something like otherwise he will say 'i didnt say that') 'i dont want to think about it and i havent in a while'...okay well i figured out that it was because Sara wanted to be a cheerleader...and i get that it may make him a little upset to think about that but i dont see why he would get mad at me and tell me it is a stupid decision. im not doing it for the aleged popularity that you get out of it...i wouldnt...and i hate one of the girls on the squad...im doing it for me...its a goal to me...ive always wanted to be a cheerleader. so i was quite for a while and he was like 'i have to go shower' so i kind of had an attitude because he was like being mean to me before so i was like 'okay.' and he said 'whats wrong?' and i said 'nothing' so he said 'you sound pissed off or something' and i was like 'so?' and he said 'i love you' and me, still being pissy disided to be a bitch and said 'okay' then he hung up on me...what kind of person does that? i would never do that...i would stay on the phone and be really sad and might start crying because i really do love him but when im in a bad mood im not about to tell anyone that i love them...so i got online and saw that he was online so i said 'i love you too' well he didnt say anything so i said 'im sorry im just not good with sertain people being mean to me' and he still didnt say anything so i said 'fine if you dont want to talk to me' and he still hasnt said anything. i dont fricken understand this boy! he is an ass to me about nothing then thells me he loves me then wont talk to me...i know what your thinking 'he is playing games with my head'...but i get how bad that hurts so im not going to confront him about it...and Sara was his best friend...and now she is gone...so i see how bad that can hurt...but i still dont get why he would be mad at me for it! he doesnt tell me anything...well at least about him...he tells me things about other people but i dont know anything about him, you can even ask him if i do and he will say that i dont.
oh and the reason im writing in here when i would usually be saying all this on the phone with someone: the person that i talk to about everything is david...i dont talk to anyone elce about anything that bugs me. so lately i have been on the search for a new guy best friend...the search is going good...i dont really know though...i think mitch is trying to get the job...but there is nothing special about him...like there is about david. oh and the other person who might have a chance at being my new best friend is jared yanez...i have been talking to him for like a week now and already he is such an awsome person but i did go out with his brother...and i dont know which guys i can trust as just friends. so i dunno.