after the storm
well i passed calculus. this is pretty much my highlight of the week. i went to osu also for my friends fraternity formal. it was fun and i got to see my camp friend erica there also. incidentally she got a concussion and had to be taken to the ER. she's alright now for which i'm very glad. i got back to new orleans on monday night and dave picked me up and dropped me off at my dorm. i really missed my roommate rachel, it was her last night in the dorms that monday night so we talked and i helped her pack up her stuff. she left yesterday and so i've been a little sad. i can't believe freshman year is over and that we're not going to live together next year. me and dave went out last night for a while but it ended so strangely. i guess things are just hard at the end of the year. i want to tell him how much i'm going to miss him and i wish things were different but of course i can't...or won't. maybe if i go and run i'll feel better. i was supposed to have lunch with my cousin who's in town but she never called back so i guess we're not meeting.
i'm starting to get freaked out that i'm coming home. maybe it will be good for me. i can start over and maybe just get away from all the things that are hard here. but there are some people i don't want to be away from. three months seems like such a long time and everything will just be different next year. i know that i need to be more positive and happier and i guess that's why this summer might be good for me. at the least i'll take a class at ucla and maybe get a job. i'll be busy. i'll get to go to yoga. i'll run. i'll go see rilo kiley and maybe warped tour. i'm scared to leave here as much as i'm scared to go home. frozen in my feet. eh i better melt soon(and i know i will since it's so damn hot outside). i'm confused and tired but i don't want to sleep or think. i'll run. it will help. hmmmm in case you've skipped to the last line of this entry...don't bother reading over.
i'm starting to get freaked out that i'm coming home. maybe it will be good for me. i can start over and maybe just get away from all the things that are hard here. but there are some people i don't want to be away from. three months seems like such a long time and everything will just be different next year. i know that i need to be more positive and happier and i guess that's why this summer might be good for me. at the least i'll take a class at ucla and maybe get a job. i'll be busy. i'll get to go to yoga. i'll run. i'll go see rilo kiley and maybe warped tour. i'm scared to leave here as much as i'm scared to go home. frozen in my feet. eh i better melt soon(and i know i will since it's so damn hot outside). i'm confused and tired but i don't want to sleep or think. i'll run. it will help. hmmmm in case you've skipped to the last line of this entry...don't bother reading over.