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i'm here in denver. it's weird but not bad necessarily. i think in my attempt to get situated and try to get things straightened out in my life i forgot that it's alright to get a little freaked out about this. i mean, i just don't think i'm really feeling or registering anything that's going on around me. i can tell 'cause if i try to remember what i've been doing(or the last time i really slept) it's not easy to. i knew that i might be lonely but the more surprising thing about me is that while i am very shy, i throw myself into strange situations. usually i come out just fine but i am so in sensory overload that at this point i find myself wanting to just be in my own bed and going to ucla or something. do i always have to go away from home? always have to do something different? i guess so. i'm sure after a few weeks i'll feel more at home here but right now i just feel kinda lonely. my mom gets here tomorrow and it'll be the first time i've seen her since before the hurricane, before i went down to tulane. i think it will help. unfortunately it's also when classes are starting and people are going to be wanting to for those friendships that come so much easier in the first few weeks of school. i miss new orleans but i don't want to talk about it around anyone here because not only are they totally helping me out and letting me tag around with them all the time, but this is their sophomore year and they're at their own school-they're happy and i don't wanna make them feel otherwise.
i did go out last night even though i was exhausted. we went to a kappa sig party which ended up being pretty fun. the guys there were really nice and i liked talking to them. i just hate how i act because i'm so shy. i just have a harder time doing the whole social thing i know, and my patience with myself is not so apparent right now. at some point i'm gonna just crash and i'm thinking it's gonna be soon. need to get into a schedule of some sort i think. classes will of course take care of that. ok enough from me.
i did go out last night even though i was exhausted. we went to a kappa sig party which ended up being pretty fun. the guys there were really nice and i liked talking to them. i just hate how i act because i'm so shy. i just have a harder time doing the whole social thing i know, and my patience with myself is not so apparent right now. at some point i'm gonna just crash and i'm thinking it's gonna be soon. need to get into a schedule of some sort i think. classes will of course take care of that. ok enough from me.