the world hates me

[_phobic_]

well i was all ready to get another job and pay for the thailand ticket myself and what not, but even if i do i wont have enough money in time, and i cant take the 1,200 from my mom because she never got an engagement ring and that was the down payment on the one she wanted for her 25th anniversary, that my couldn't buy because our airconditioning broke. grrr. its gonna suck hearing about thailand from my aunt, but right now its not possible for my family to pay for this trip and i can't ask them to loan me money. money is like the source of all my problems. oh yea and just to make my night even grander my parents got into a HUGE fight because of the cat, when i got home my dad was playing with it and loving it and like 30 min later he was just bitching about how horrible it is and how he hates my pets and how he has no say in this house and how everything sucks and how everything in our house keeps breaking ...lsdfj;aldkjf;alkdfj soooooooooooooooooooooooo much negativity. no im angry faced. and sad about thailand.
im going somewhere amazing this summer goddamnit and by then ill have the money and i wont have to hear my dad's bitching about how much of a "waste" of money thailand isa. ;lsdkjf;lsdjf;
i dont like being in a bad mood, this ruined the whole friday feel good weekend feeling.