To: You
You know who you are.
Im not sure if you still read my live journal anymore. Probably not, but I know i can't talk to about about these types of things, so I thought id go out on a limb that maybe you still read this.
Anyways, I miss you. You know this. My stupid little reminders are corny, i know. Its a girl thing. Or something. My way of still trying to be happy and positive about the situation.
But obviously, im not happy. And i don't blame you at all. I just know things aren't the same, and you must know this too...
Our time together meant so much to me. I was extreamly positive that our distance wasn't going to take a toll on us, and that everything would be awesome and the same in June. But i am a niave little girl, you need to know this.
If i am being totally stupid, please let me know. If you don't feel the same about me, let me know. I know you probably don't feel 100% like you did, and thats understandable, its just the way things have been lately, i feel like I just don't matter at all to you anymore.
I try to show how much i care by leaving you the "you fucking rock" msgs, and sending you cards. And i think you're happy about it, but then you just go back to hardly talking to me...
Are you seeing someone? If you are, i am happy for you, and i can accept that. I guess i'd just like to know, ya know? BUT i know you have no obligation to tell me. But im hoping we could at least come out of this as good friends?
You stick out. Sounds weird i know, but ive met a lot of people in my lifetime, and you are one of the best people ive ever met. I hope i dont put too much pressure on you by stating this fact, but it is true, you do mean a lot to me, even if it was less than a week we spend together, it was one of the best i ever had.
So basically, what ive been trying to say, is don't think im crazy and obsessive. You just mean a lot to me, and i wants whats best for you, and at least be your friend. I want things to be the same as you were. You were there for me the nite i got beat up, even if it was just online. But you made me feel so much better, to know someone out there cares about me so much.
I miss talking to you on the phone.
Our crazy drunken rambles. You were always there to tell me something awesome, and make me laugh and love your weirdness. But it seems like all thats gone, and you just don't want to talk anymore.
I hope i didn't do anything wrong, or put too much pressure on you. I hope when i visit, we hang out. Even more, i hope its the next best week of my life. I miss you a lot.
Im not sure if you still read my live journal anymore. Probably not, but I know i can't talk to about about these types of things, so I thought id go out on a limb that maybe you still read this.
Anyways, I miss you. You know this. My stupid little reminders are corny, i know. Its a girl thing. Or something. My way of still trying to be happy and positive about the situation.
But obviously, im not happy. And i don't blame you at all. I just know things aren't the same, and you must know this too...
Our time together meant so much to me. I was extreamly positive that our distance wasn't going to take a toll on us, and that everything would be awesome and the same in June. But i am a niave little girl, you need to know this.
If i am being totally stupid, please let me know. If you don't feel the same about me, let me know. I know you probably don't feel 100% like you did, and thats understandable, its just the way things have been lately, i feel like I just don't matter at all to you anymore.
I try to show how much i care by leaving you the "you fucking rock" msgs, and sending you cards. And i think you're happy about it, but then you just go back to hardly talking to me...
Are you seeing someone? If you are, i am happy for you, and i can accept that. I guess i'd just like to know, ya know? BUT i know you have no obligation to tell me. But im hoping we could at least come out of this as good friends?
You stick out. Sounds weird i know, but ive met a lot of people in my lifetime, and you are one of the best people ive ever met. I hope i dont put too much pressure on you by stating this fact, but it is true, you do mean a lot to me, even if it was less than a week we spend together, it was one of the best i ever had.
So basically, what ive been trying to say, is don't think im crazy and obsessive. You just mean a lot to me, and i wants whats best for you, and at least be your friend. I want things to be the same as you were. You were there for me the nite i got beat up, even if it was just online. But you made me feel so much better, to know someone out there cares about me so much.
I miss talking to you on the phone.
Our crazy drunken rambles. You were always there to tell me something awesome, and make me laugh and love your weirdness. But it seems like all thats gone, and you just don't want to talk anymore.
I hope i didn't do anything wrong, or put too much pressure on you. I hope when i visit, we hang out. Even more, i hope its the next best week of my life. I miss you a lot.